Wow.
This confirms so much for me Jamie.
I've been struggling a lot
and this weekend I broke down.
I went to church and I heard a message that felt like was just for me
but I ignored it.
Now reading this, I think it's a sign.
I love TWLOHA and you.
Thank you for filling in a piece in the puzzle.
Love,
Erin Hotchkiss

1 | Left by Erin hotchkiss | May. 23, 2010 at 11:51am

every time i read a twloha blog i feel like i start to sparkle. i have no idea if that makes sense or not, but that's how they make me feel.
i love that you are around making people feel this way. i love it.

2 | Left by pj | May. 23, 2010 at 11:55am

"Like a song too much. Feel the drums or get lost in the chorus. It means that you're alive. "

too often i feel numb and like i'm really living. more like a walking shell. this reminded me that i am alive when i get lost in music. thanks.

3 | Left by natalie | May. 23, 2010 at 11:56am

I needed this so much today. Yesterday was the first time in nearly seven years that I contemplated suicide. Since the birth of my son, I have not felt as down, useless and unwanted in this world as I have in the last two days. I'm older than much of your following, but have loved your mission since I first heard of it. I struggled all through middle and high school and I appreciate what you do SO MUCH. Thank you for posting this. It made me feel alive.
Love Forever,
Megan

4 | Left by Megan | May. 23, 2010 at 11:56am

That's amazing. This is the first time in a long time that I've read something like this. Thankyou.
Thankyou and TWLOHA for caring when it seems like no one else does.

5 | Left by Shannon Maria | May. 23, 2010 at 11:57am

Jamie.
You're the man.
Thanks.

6 | Left by danny | May. 23, 2010 at 12:04pm

This made me cry. "It is for broken people and it is led by broken people." Thank you.

7 | Left by sandy | May. 23, 2010 at 12:06pm

Thank you for this. Just what I needed right now. Blessings to everyone.

8 | Left by Elle | May. 23, 2010 at 12:14pm

This was probably the best 18th birthday present I could ever ask for :). The timing of this blog couldn't have been more perfect...thank you for reminding me of all the things that I need to keep in my mind. Thank you for giving me the reassurance I needed during this time in my life. And thank you so much for existing and continuing to inspire me.

9 | Left by Vivian | May. 23, 2010 at 12:18pm

Thank you for making me smile.

10 | Left by Allyson | May. 23, 2010 at 12:22pm

wow, i really needed to hear something like this....thanks.

11 | Left by Emily | May. 23, 2010 at 12:59pm

thank you. thanks so much.

12 | Left by Anon | May. 23, 2010 at 1:05pm

My younger sister died 12 weeks ago today, and I'm still in the constant state of questioning the circumstances surrounding her death. Those first three sentences are specifically poignant.
You're right— no one's alone in suffering. Life is suffering; but life is also ecstatic celebration of living and of experience.

13 | Left by J | May. 23, 2010 at 1:06pm

thank you
i needed this today
thank you

14 | Left by Anon | May. 23, 2010 at 1:25pm

Dear TWLOHA,

I believe that everyone has a purpose in this life because that is what the bible and my family have told me. I didn’t find out about a group like this until this year because a lot of the kids in my school where your t-shirts, so I decided to Google you. I think with all the great messages that you send among people that do cut themselves is kind of like a safe-haven for some of them. I would like for you guys to know that God must have said when he was creating yall, that their purpose will be to change the world little by little. I believe that yall are fulfilling that purpose in a major way. Thank you


Anonymous

15 | Left by Anon | May. 23, 2010 at 1:28pm

Thank you Jamie I really needed to hear this today. I just back from Charlotte, NC and the Bamboozle Road Show where I had got the chance to talk with a lady in a TWLOHA tent and she was so very helpful, and your blog just added to that. I am a cutter and have been clean for 9 days today and to hear something like this really speaks to me and means a lot to my inner self.

16 | Left by Scottie | May. 23, 2010 at 1:30pm

I needed this. Thank you.

17 | Left by Kendra | May. 23, 2010 at 1:53pm

When I read this. It felt as if this was written for me. Thank you. I've been depressed for a very long time, and TWLOHA helped me through it, and even though I don't live in the USA (or anywhere close) all those messages and quotes, they showed me to never give up hope. That's how I beat my depression, I don't say I'm cured, but I'm better.
Thank you.

You matter too.

18 | Left by Mara | May. 23, 2010 at 1:58pm

reading something like this inspires me so much. it really helps me get through the day and to help make me look at a bigger picture. We can't always live in the moments but live for the moments...

19 | Left by Nicole | May. 23, 2010 at 2:46pm

I feel like I'm going to cry. It's just so amazing to read something like this and know someone out there thinks that people like us matter. Thank you so much.

20 | Left by Anon | May. 23, 2010 at 3:07pm

Thank you.

for all your writing, for leaving all you knew and creating this amazing organization. for daring to talk about what nobody else will. for giving cutters and depressed people and people contemplating suicide a place to belong when they feel so alone, because everybody needs a community. for trying to give those precious people hope, for trying to convince them they will be missed. for making me realize there are worse places i could be and that I will get through this.

for giving hope and inspiration.

just simply, thank you.
for everything you, and everybody at TWLOHA, do.

I pray God blesses TWLOHA for many years to come and uses TWLOHA in mighty ways.

21 | Left by Ellen | May. 23, 2010 at 3:26pm

i rarely go on this website. Ive struggled with feelings of depression for years. I havent cut myself in over a year now which amazes to me. I still struggle when im down. But I wanted to let you know that this organization has had a big part in helping me through life. Now, when i read the blogs its usually beacuse im really struggling. Thats where im at today, im really really struggling. Reading this meant alot to me today. Thank you.

p.s. this is an amazing organization. thank you for everything that your doing

22 | Left by lee | May. 23, 2010 at 4:07pm

When I read this, I wanted to leave a comment right away. But I didn't. For some reason, I thought it was a waste of my time to leave a comment nobody would read. But when I tried to go to other websites, they kept on closing on me. And when that happened, I had to go back to my homepage, which is TWLOHA.
I'm a drug addict. I just want anyone like me to know that I am praying for you. Please pray for me too.

23 | Left by Theh0pe | May. 23, 2010 at 5:00pm

to Theh0pe: i have never struggled with drug addiction but i want you to know that i care and ill be praying for you

24 | Left by lee | May. 23, 2010 at 5:06pm

Thank you so much for this. I've been struggling a lot for the past few days, and people have asked me to stop talking to them about depression, which made it even harder. So thank you very much. It means a lot to me.

25 | Left by Laryssa | May. 23, 2010 at 5:21pm

Thank you so much for reminding people all the time that we matter. This is my favorite part about visiting the TWLOHA page. Everyone needs to hear it sometimes, including me.

26 | Left by Maggie | May. 23, 2010 at 6:29pm

this made me cry. i really needed it today, and i say thank you. twloha has saved my life.

27 | Left by al. | May. 23, 2010 at 6:29pm

I can feel my heart beating... Thank you

28 | Left by Anon | May. 23, 2010 at 6:49pm

this made me cry jamie. thanks for everything you've done.
we're alive

29 | Left by julia | May. 23, 2010 at 7:16pm

I am one of the many suffering in silence. I will not share my hardships with those around me, and I dont expect them to notice the signs. Without posts like these, I don't know what I'd do. Thank you for giving me flickers of light in this dark place I'm in.

30 | Left by Anonymous | May. 23, 2010 at 7:40pm

Thank you, from the bottom of my heart. I am a person who has struggled with depression most of my life, and this is exactly what I needed today. Also; thank you to Andy, Kayla, Kelsey, and Miriam. All of you have played played a role in who I am today, as well as saving my life multiple times.

31 | Left by E | May. 23, 2010 at 8:23pm

Thank you so much, I really needed that right now. Thank you TWLOHA, and thank you Jamie

32 | Left by Tahsa | May. 23, 2010 at 8:39pm

you inspired me to write, Jamie.

Take these blackened streets of loneliness
Tread too many times by suffering souls
And cast light to their downhearted spirits
Breath the colors of life into their coals

Show them they were made to know
And to be known

Take these beautiful stories of shattered pasts
Shared by far too many noble nations
And streak the nights with their boldness
Show the worth in their declarations

Show them they were made to love
And to be loved

Take these pleas for help and offer hands
Hands to hold when they feel astray
Hands to catch them if they ever fall
To be bold enough to point the way

Show them they were made to hear
And to be heard

Take these ignorant minds that swarm to judge
And offer astounding knowledge beyond your years
Take these taboo topics to the streets to scream
And show they are more common than they appear

Show them they are not alone

33 | Left by Cheyna | May. 23, 2010 at 10:32pm

All I can say is thank you. I really needed this. Thank you so very much.

34 | Left by Amanda | May. 24, 2010 at 12:52am

i hope you understand how many lives you've saved, jamie.

35 | Left by annie | May. 24, 2010 at 5:19am

I really needed to hear this today. I've been struggling the last 2 weeks, but only realized it in the last week end. I feel so alone and i feel lonely for companionship. The type i convinced myself i would have by the age of 31. The type that is completely inaccessible to me right now, living and working as i do as a missionary with a very transient, unsettled lifestyle. I ache and i need and i want. But mostly I ache. Thank you for making me feel like its OK and not condemning me to the pit of guilt and shame that threatened to take me down. I SO want to be free in Christ today. I know that i can be - that I AM but I don't FEEL it today. Please pray for me.

36 | Left by anna | May. 24, 2010 at 5:49am

I keep on coming back to read this. Its beautiful.

37 | Left by Kendra | May. 24, 2010 at 11:51am

This helped me alot...thank you, everytime i'm about to hurt myself i read this, and it helps.

38 | Left by Anon | May. 24, 2010 at 2:16pm

Jamie, one of God's greatest decisions, was to create you. You always have the right words. You are always so hopeful. I hope that everyday, someone tells you that YOU are important, and that your dreams matter and that you are alive and you are not alone. Because, you truly deserve to hear it. These last few weeks have been stressful....I am about to graduate high school..and I am so sick of high school and slightly of life and drama, right now. I have been feeling slightly worthless. But, I have been reminded that "You deserve love.You deserve a place that feels like home. You deserve some hands to hold. Hands to pull you past the broken moments, hands to catch you when you fall. Eyes to see you. To say you're there, that you exist, that you change a room, that your presence is significant. Ears to hear you - hear your stories, hear you laugh. Ears to hear your questions and to say they matter." Honestly, this is all I have ever wanted...and I can't ever seem to get it...but this refuels the hope that it is out there..thank you so much.

39 | Left by Moriah | May. 24, 2010 at 2:18pm

That was so incredible Jamie.
Everyone here, remember you are loved and rescue is real and possible...
You matter. You are loved in ways that can't be explained.
In ways that don't depend on your performance.
Remember there is always hope.
Psalm 34:18
"The Lord is close to the brokenhearted; he rescues those whose spirits are crushed."

40 | Left by Em | May. 24, 2010 at 3:23pm

THANK YOU JAMIE.

....I hope you're doing ok, Jamie. Make sure you know that you are important and deserve everything great in life. I think that unfortunately sometimes, the genuinely good people don't hear that enough. I hope you're happy, wherever you are, in whatever you do.

Peace to you, Jamie,
-Jovie

41 | Left by Jovie | May. 24, 2010 at 3:45pm

I saw this entry, but didn't read it until my best friend pointed it out to me.
I could go on long and explain the whole story, but that's a story that entirely too long to go into.
But someone in my life I feel a profound emotional attachment to needs to hear what you wrote. I passed it along in a way she'd be able to hear it.
Thank you.

42 | Left by Jeff | May. 24, 2010 at 4:18pm

Whenever I read one of your blog entries, I feel like there is hope. There's this little feeling in my heart that makes me feel amazing, and like I'm okay. Like I'm alive.

43 | Left by Kadey | May. 24, 2010 at 4:31pm

Wow... This blog really made me feel something. When I read these blog entries, I feel like there really is hope; like I really matter; like I'm not alone in how I feel.
Thank you

44 | Left by Maggie | May. 24, 2010 at 5:54pm

theres somebody i shared this with.

i love her more then i love my family. but i cant save her. n she refuses to save herself.

im so scared.

i hope she reads ur message, and i hope she gets it. she deserves to be happy she deserves the best.

why wont see beleive that?

45 | Left by chelios7 | May. 24, 2010 at 6:56pm

So I read this after a very difficult day, and I simply broke down and cried. Thank you, Jamie, thank you so much. I needed to know these things, because earlier, I could not convince myself of these things.
With love, Lacey

46 | Left by Lacey | May. 24, 2010 at 7:21pm

you mean so much to so many people. i'm going to print off this post and keep it where i can always read it in times of trouble.

i hope you take this post to YOUR own heart as well. you are loved

47 | Left by claire | May. 24, 2010 at 7:31pm

When I saw the subject title for this email update in my inbox, I swear my heart skipped a beat. Lord knows how often I've begged Him to bring someone to say those words to me. To say that I matter...that I change a room, that somebody SEES me. Doesn't just glance at me, but really sees me...

Thank you for writing this. It struck a poignant chord with me. Reading through it brought me as close to tears as I've come in the year since my mother's suicide and my own near suicide. I'm so grateful that you have such a heart for people like me who feel worthless and invisible, for people who are just broken inside. YOU matter very much, Jamie.

48 | Left by Courtney | May. 25, 2010 at 7:05am

Wow. Theres alot of stuff going on with me and i almost started cutting again. but as i reached for the blade, i decided to go to this website first. Reading this makes me realize that theres another way to deal with stuff besides cutting. Thank You.

49 | Left by Jenny | May. 25, 2010 at 10:58am

this is really beautiful. I must say : thank you , so much.
all of us probably need to read something like this sometimes ( some of us , most of the times ).


hugs.

50 | Left by L | May. 25, 2010 at 12:35pm

I wish i could believe this. It's been untrue for me for too long. how much longer one can live this was is not much.

51 | Left by charley | May. 25, 2010 at 1:16pm

This blog has filled me with hope. I've been feeling alone lately but this makes me believe that i matter to someone out there. I feel like i just want to help someone and to tell someone they matter. twloha is the greatest thing to ever happen. anyone and everyone out there,we all matter. We are all one.

52 | Left by alex | May. 25, 2010 at 3:35pm

this was absolutely beautiful to read, and I only hope that one day I can believe this and have it become a reality for me. I have struggled alone for 13 years and it still feels like it will never go away, but this site and this blog always give me a glimpse of hope. thank you for all you do.

53 | Left by Kelly | May. 25, 2010 at 7:53pm

Thank you, Jamie. You matter more than you think. I can promise you that.

54 | Left by Briana | May. 25, 2010 at 8:31pm

so inspiring.
i just hope i can bring myself to believe most of this. just wish i can...

55 | Left by jessica | May. 26, 2010 at 1:25pm

Thank you so much Jamie.
You have no idea how much I needed this today.
BTW you guys helped me save someone about 2 weeks ago.
Thank you.
I love TWLOHA!
Love you all!
Jules

56 | Left by Jules | May. 26, 2010 at 7:16pm

Thank you. That's all I can say.

57 | Left by Sick With Love | May. 26, 2010 at 10:14pm

wow. i loved that blog. i holds soooo much thuth. thank you soooo much for everything yall do!!

58 | Left by Courtney Weeks | May. 27, 2010 at 3:42pm

I've read this blog about 20 times..
Everytime it makes me feel the same,
it makes me feel that even though I feel empty in my small town, somewhere there are people that feel like I do, know my struggles and it gives me that will to keep bustling on. What you guys do at TWLOHA really, really is truely amazing.

59 | Left by Taylor | May. 27, 2010 at 5:36pm

I have been feeling depressed lately with problems regarding the image I have for myself, and they've been eating away at me. Sometimes I feel I'm not supposed to be happy. But I'm glad I read this. Everyone deserves to show themselves love. It takes alot of work and growing to create who we are, so our lives have worth. Thank you.

60 | Left by H. | May. 27, 2010 at 7:42pm

to theh0pe: i'm praying that you, and all others, get passed the drugs and the suffering. i hope you feel full of life.

61 | Left by H. | May. 27, 2010 at 10:05pm

this made me cry. i was feeling like i was of no value, and being tempted to cut, even thinking of how life would be better without me in it. the simple words "you matter" just totally changed my night.

62 | Left by grace | May. 27, 2010 at 10:42pm

People matter. Period. You don't get to be the judge when it comes to how you will impact others (for the record, you do). You may never know how incredible you are to someone who is watching. You matter. I'm telling you now. There is no one like you. This world needs you. It's okay to be FURIOUS, but LOVE is the answer. Know you are loved.

"Every moment is a mission, your heartbeat is the countdown." - DJS

63 | Left by David J. Sperling | May. 28, 2010 at 11:54am

Thanks Jamie, your words just made me feel better. I've been struggling lately so thank you, at least now I have stronger hope :]

64 | Left by Lizzy H. | May. 28, 2010 at 4:28pm

Wow, Very deep yet so true. I been struggling with a break up and those words made me feel so much better. I felt like I had no purpose in life. Like I was mistake. Sometimes its good to hear like we matter.
Thank you (:

65 | Left by Jenn | May. 28, 2010 at 5:53pm

Thank you Jamie,
I just never feel like I am important, weird and sort of awkward. I have a lot of friends and I have an amazing family and boyfriend, I just feel like if someone were too do this for me it could change my life, thank you[:
You are my inspiration too be a writer one day and actually make a difference, make people cry because of what I write, make change.
Thank you for being what I need.
With love,
-Nicole.

66 | Left by Nicole Seitz | May. 28, 2010 at 7:21pm

i want to let twloha know tht you changed my life you brought me back you gave me a reason to believe in myself i was hospitialized for 9 months and before tht i was unsuccesful with 4 suicide attempts but here i am today loving life even with its up and down i could never be happier with who i am and who i will become and with my exprience im am going to become a pschychiatrist and make a difference in someones life jst like you saved me so i want to thank you soooo much and i love you guys thanks
Love always and forever Sarah

67 | Left by sarah vetro | May. 28, 2010 at 7:54pm

absolutely amazing. moments before i read this, i was trying to figure out a way to end everything. today, i had someone tell me i didn't matter, no one cared about me, and i should go back to cutting. this person also told me i should do the world a favor and kill myself and succeed this time. occasionally i have people tell me they don't care and no one else does. usually i blow them off, but today was different because it was my best friend. twloha is the best foundation ever. it and everyone associated has saved my life...

loves

68 | Left by morgan | May. 28, 2010 at 7:54pm

to write love on her arms gives me hope, It gives to something to beleive in and that everything will be fine

69 | Left by Anon | May. 29, 2010 at 12:07am

It's amazing how God delivers you the right message at the right time! He is all knowing and all powerful. Every day is a struggle for me. Every day I must remind myself that I do have a purpose. I'm not the only one who has problems. I'm not the only one who is struggling. I'm not the only one who is broken. Thank you so much for sending me this link. I have to go on. I must continue down the road, even if it's dark and it seems like there is no end. There will be light at the end. I have to hold on and never let go! My family deserves it. I must remain strong for my children! What will they think if I let go? I just can't. I must press on! I must have hope. Hope is the fuel that will keep me going. Every thing will be all right. :)

70 | Left by Rachel | May. 29, 2010 at 3:11pm

Jamie everything you write has so much meaning, and it is always true with no hatred. it is something everyone loves and needs to hear. Twloha is something I would never want to see go down the drain, i have been supporting it for 3 years and i will always support it.

71 | Left by Chelsea | May. 29, 2010 at 3:16pm

jamie
i dont know who you are and i will probly never meet you but i want you to know that i love you.
it is very difficult for me to admit these things even to all you people who don't know me.
i never thought i'd become this. I'm so selfish and dirty, disappointing, alone, and just done.
but reading this makes me think of the reasons why i have to keep trying. i've had an eating disordrfor three and a half yeasr and been cutting for a year and a half and until recently it was so easy to deny it. I have hurt so many ppl.
and im very scared.

reading this gave me some hope. just knowing that there are countless other ppl out there, who dont know me and who i donnt know, who feel what i feel and know what i know is truly amazing.
i love you all. idk who you are but i love you so much.
i am nothing but an empty potato sack. reading this has given me, at least temporarily, a couple of my potatoes back.
thank you, TWLOHA.
-me

72 | Left by No Name Please | May. 29, 2010 at 5:08pm

This has made gotten to the core of my sadness and washed some of it away. I'm a cutter and know others who were or still are. I still don't feel like they know how I feel but this has made me feel loved in a way that i haven't felt for months. I've only been a cutter for a few months and it already feels like I'm addicted to a drug that has claimed me as it's own. . . I don't know how to get help or ask for help. All I know is that I don't want my friends and family to know. Well if they don't already.
Thanks so much for your love. TWLOHA.
-

73 | Left by Holli | May. 29, 2010 at 7:20pm

thank you people who run this. im very thankful to know theres people out there who care . i almost lost my bestfriend it hurted . she felt lost and outta place. :'( thanks for helping all these kids out there who need help . i one day hope i can make a difference too . god bless you all

74 | Left by alyssa | May. 30, 2010 at 12:14am

i dont know how to feel. i was feeling very suicidal and sad. i still do, but now im bawling even more. the first paragraph hit home for me.

75 | Left by Anon | May. 30, 2010 at 12:54am

To Holli (and anyone stuggling with addiction):
It doesn't matter what kind of addiction you're dealing with, but the first step is to tell someone. It could be family or friend, but make sure you trust the person a lot. Make sure they know not to tell anyone. And once they know, ask them to help you quit. All you have to do is really make an effort. Having someone know helps, because then you have someone to stop for. I have delt with cutting addictions, and I have stopped that, cold-turkey. Now I am working on ending a drug addiction. I lost a friend over it who caught me. DON'T LET THIS HAPPEN TO YOU! Stop before you need full rehab. Just please stop. My best friend told me, "You do not need this burden in your life anymore."

76 | Left by Theh0pe | May. 30, 2010 at 5:00am

i understand what your saying , yet it is very rare to happen to me . your words are very strong and bold . thank you for the encouragement .

77 | Left by kalli | May. 30, 2010 at 9:03am

this made my day so much. thank you so much. that is exactly what i needed to hear.
much love,
manda

78 | Left by Amanda | May. 30, 2010 at 11:54am

i know everyone has said it but it's deserved. thank you.. i hope you realize how many lives this organization has truly touched even if they are not struggling with depression, addiction, or suicide. it may be that they have a friend dealing with it, lost a family member to it, or just see the sadness in someones eyes as they pass them in the halls... but everyone is affected in some way by what to write love is trying to help. 
after i found out a friend from childhood took her own life a couple years ago things have never been the same. i have always and will always blame myself for it even though im constantly told i couldn't have saved her and it's not my fault. but it never mattered what anyone else told me. only what i thought was true.. leading me down the path of never feeling good enough and using pain to cope with pain. which eventually brought me to thinking the world would be better without me period. but thanks to close friends and posts like this.. they reminded me that they cared. and that i really have made a difference in someones life whether i see it or not. that there is hope. that there are other people out there struggling the same way. 
and remember that even if you aren't dealing with these things that the girl next to you may be.. be kind in your words and actions. show them they are loved instead of the hate the world tends to show. you never know when a smile, hug, or loving word may save a life.
so to everyone out there.. be reminded that YOU make a difference. YOU have a story to tell. and YOU are truly and unconditionally loved.        

79 | Left by sarah. | May. 30, 2010 at 10:38pm

i really needed to hear this ive been having the worst urges and i havent been telling my best friend. i locked myself in the bathroom and was going to cut the crap outa my wrist but now im not thanks too you thankyou

80 | Left by tabitha | May. 31, 2010 at 2:07am

before i realized people cared i wanted to commit suicide. i sliced up my arm, and had a "serious" case of depression. but now i realize that i was stupid. God put me in this world for a good reason and if he thought i should die at 13 then maybe i would. no looking back i think, what if i had? i dont want to anymore, and this year i graduate from high school. i am in love and i love my life. i hope that all that suffer find the sense of love they have but dont realize

81 | Left by Anon | Jun. 1, 2010 at 8:15am

and thank you!!!!

82 | Left by Anon | Jun. 1, 2010 at 8:16am

that made me think.....y do i do the things i do? y do we all do the things we do? i think that we r here for a reason and that reason is to love and to be loved...to day i had a realy bad day cus thar is romers goin around school and i hate it cus its not all true :( i thout i needed to die to be happy but i found a guy that hellps me thou this and he is ok but a guy ant somthing to get hiped up on like we all have something good and somthing that will be good in the futcher:) think u for listing to what i have to say!!!!!!!! i love u all :) we all go thou things its not just me thar is alot more:( i thout it was only me!!!

83 | Left by alexandria | Jun. 1, 2010 at 2:56pm

today i really felt that i didn't deserve love. i always mess it up when i get it, and i doubt i will ever again .
but this blog really brightened my day.

84 | Left by pam | Jun. 1, 2010 at 5:56pm

Yesterday a girl from my school committed suicide. About a month ago a boy from my school who was her ex boyfriend had taken his own life as well. They both seemed very happy and both were very unexpected. I just wish someone had been able to tell both of them that their lives mattered an that they were loved. Because I think a lot of people Arent told that enough.

85 | Left by Lizzy | Jun. 2, 2010 at 7:41am

i have been on this website a few times in the past year but today i am here to thank jamie for this amayzing post |!

actually yesturday was the most amayzing yet shamful day of
my life.I was supossed to go to school and i just literraly couldent get myself out of bed , depression had taken over me and i knew it.I knew i wanted to die right at that second. I slowly got up and went to the bathroom and took a whole bottle of sleeping pills , i knocked out and when i woke up on my bathroom floor i got really scared , i had wanted to die soo bad but then i realise it wasent actually what i wanted , i grabbed my cellphone and called my dad crying my eyes out , all i could say was that i was sorry , i was so so so sorry. im sorry i couldent be the perfect , beautiful , amayzing daughter and student he wanted me to be . i felt myself drifting away and when i woke up i was in the ambulance . my dad had called 911 and boy was i glad he did , i realised i dident wanna die i just wanted all the pain to go away

the look on my fathers face when i was getting out of the ambulance made my heart sink , there was no words or emotions to explain it , he looked at me and whispered that he loved me so so much.
after getting my stomach pumped i was sent home since theyre wasent any room for me to stay over night and ive been resting ever since , i know now just how many ppl love me , my friends came over with a big card signed by everyone , i know now that im not alone with this fight

thanks again for this amayzing story

86 | Left by lost little girl | Jun. 3, 2010 at 7:06am

So...this made me cry.but in a good way,if that makes sense.It felt like this was written directly to me,and though I know it wasn't,thank you,very much. Whenever I get really sad,whenever I just want to go swallow a bottle of pills and die,I think I'm going to read this.because I was thinking about it earlier,and this helped,alot.I think I'm going to be living,for a long time.thanks you

87 | Left by Ana | Jun. 3, 2010 at 5:12pm

thank you. my ex-boyfriend has been acted really weird for the last weeeks. he told my friend that he is pushing everyone a way becuz he's at the point in this life where he is figuring out who he is. i want to help him, but i wasnt sure what to say... after reading this i know now what to do. thank you.

88 | Left by Lexi | Jun. 4, 2010 at 8:19am

im so scared
i dont know what to do
jamie i have to cut. nobody understands. i have to if i dont then there's not gonna be anything left. i have to cut to know that im still here, that im still alive. that im substance. if i stop...i tried. i tried. and my thoughts got so bad. i wanted to end it all right there, my momgot so mad and tried to take me to the hospital but i just i dontttt knowwww what to doooooo i cant stop i cant stop and i kee hurting everybody who knows me ive lost everything i have nowhere to go

im not at home in my home and im not at home anywhere else. i just want somebody to love me and hold me and kiss my cuts until they go away i just want to be healed i want to be done i want to be clean
bu t i never will. i cant anymore.
bulimia and cutting is all i have left.
i dont want to hurt anymore.

89 | Left by no name please | Jun. 4, 2010 at 9:48am

To no name please-
This is my third comment left on this post. I keep posting so I can tell people that they matter. I want to help you.
Only a few months ago, I was in the same position that you were. I cut to feel something. I cut to know I was alive. I told my best friend, and she helped me quit. Even though I don't know you, I want to help you quit.
Cutting yourself is not the only way to feel alive. Listen to your favorite song. Hug someone you love. Share what you are feeling with someone. Have then help you.
And when you need someone to love you and kiss your cuts until they go away, someone is. Jesus is. He loves you more than you can imagine. Please, trust in God and Jesus. They will help you.
And don't be afraid of a hospital. Believe it or not, what you need may be there.

Love,
Theh0pe

90 | Left by Theh0pe | Jun. 4, 2010 at 12:56pm

you're keeping me alive.
please dont stop

91 | Left by Me | Jun. 5, 2010 at 5:25am

To No Name Please
I need to tell you that there is a way out of your cutting. There is a way of finding love. There is a way of finding joy, actually, and a way to be free of cutting yourself. Jesus Christ was cut for you. His body was slashed to pieces for love of you. His side was cut with a spear because of his love for you. His hands and feet and head bled for love of you. There is no reason for you to cut yourself, when He has already suffered that for you - to give you hope and life, and to make you really alive! Surrender yourself to His love. It supercedes the love of parents or friends or anybody. He will wrap you in His arms. I am certain that if He died for you, to take your sins away, that he loves you supremely, and will take you into His family. His fatherly love will be enough for you. I know, because His father's love has filled my own heart in the absence of the love of my own father. He once said, while He was on earth, "I came that you might have life, and that you might have it abundantly." He also said, "I have loved you even as the Father has loved Me. Live within My love...I have told you this so that you will be filled with My joy. Yes, your cup of joy will overflow!" Please have hope. There is a way out, and it is through Jesus Christ, God in the flesh!

92 | Left by Agape | Jun. 5, 2010 at 8:15am

We all have a story...and we all matter no matter how hard it may seem at times. Jamie you are doing a great job. This Blog just may have saved me today

93 | Left by Jenn | Jun. 6, 2010 at 2:45pm

i needed this so much.
twloha saved me.
i love you

94 | Left by kerrin | Jun. 6, 2010 at 4:52pm

Thank you, Jamie. This isn't the first time I've read this blog, but it's the time it's really hit home for me. I needed this today. I won't go into detail, it's hard to explain. Maybe I'll stop hurting myself and feeling like I should hurt myself. Maybe I can love and be loved and love life. Thank you so much. You help to remind me that the Goddess and the God love me and want me to love life. Blessed Be.

95 | Left by H | Jun. 6, 2010 at 8:54pm

I needed to hear this today.

"It's good that you're alive. Who else could play your part?"

Every day I try to tell myself that. I keep feeling like my depression and pain are too much to bear, like I'm tired of holding up everything alone. I try to shield my kids from the worst of my depression and make a safe home for them but so often I feel like they would be better off without their crazy mother.

Thank you for reminding me that I am needed, that I matter, and that hope is real.

96 | Left by laid-off single mom | Jun. 7, 2010 at 9:58am

Thank you,
this rlly does inspire me.
TWLOHA is probally, the thing that inspired me the most.
I always feel like Im the only one, im all alone.
That whatever I say or ask, is going to be stupid. Or laughed at. I dont like this feeling, but reading this, and all the comments, make me know that I am not alone.
Thank you for the inspiration.
xoxo

97 | Left by Kaylee | Jun. 7, 2010 at 3:03pm

I needed this and so did my best friend. It's so hard for both of us... but I worry about her more, because she suffers so silently. Thank you, I will show this to her so she can see that we love her. She isn't alone.

98 | Left by Anon | Jun. 7, 2010 at 3:21pm

hi.
I never expected anybody to actually read what i wrote.
thank you. you are a kind, kind person.
I'm sorry that i can't stop. I'm so sorry. I can't get rid of this guilt, this awful corrosive smothering. I'm so sorry. I'm so so so sorry. I've just destroyed my body, just absoultely and i felt nothing. Please, you say God will help me. But i've been praying and praying and crying and dying and sitting on the locker room floor, day after day at school, making myself throw up and cutting myself and just wishing and praying to God, just to help me and hold me and heal me and just please let me stop feeling so alone, in the middle of all these people but so alone. And I pray and i pray and i give myself to Him. And the emptiness just crushes me, and I'm more alone then i ever imagined. What am i doing wrong? Does God not love me?

why does everything i do hurt people? ahhhhhhh :( i can't do this. I'm sorry, Jamie and everyone but I'm so lost. I'm so lost.

I'm so scared. Oh God :(
i cut to feel something and I cut to keep myself alive.
but what do i do now? when not even cutting helps? this is too long. damnit. i'm sorry.

i'm sorry.

99 | Left by No Name Please | Jun. 7, 2010 at 7:57pm

To No Name Please

Although it may not seem like it now, life is a beautiful thing. Even though it's scary, mean, and hurts like hell sometimes, life is precious. We are so lucky to have the chance to live, even though it means hurting sometimes.

When I read your comment, I knew I had to write back. You are just like me, six months ago. My parents couldn't get me out of bed and tried to check me into the psychiatric ward; but I refused to go. I felt like I had nothing to live for anymore. I was empty and lost.

I want you to know that even though you feel empty and numb, you have so much more strength and will than you even know. I want you to know that you will get better. This pain doesn't last forever, I promise you it doesn't.

I got better and so will you. If your mom tries to take you to the hospital, don't resist. I did the first time and it was a mistake. Doctors and hospitals are sometimes the push you need to start your recovery. Just remember that no matter where you are, at home, school, the hospital, wherever, you're never alone in this. There is so much hope and love surrounding you, you may not even know it.

I leave you with this quote:

“Don’t ask what the world needs. Ask what makes you come alive, and go do it. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive.” ---Howard Thurman

Love, Haley

100 | Left by Haley | Jun. 8, 2010 at 9:45am

To No Name Please,
I know you can get through this. It may seem like you're stuck in a horrible black hole, but I promise you you'll find the light at the end. If you were strong enough to survive whatever led to the cutting in the first place, you're definately strong enough to escape from it. I have hope for you. I know you can heal. I know you can love life again. You're alive.
Blessed Be.

101 | Left by H | Jun. 8, 2010 at 5:20pm

I started crying the moment I read this.
As someone who's listens to everyone but no one listens to her. It makes me wish I could call up someone to say I need someone to listen.
Because sometimes it feels like I'm falling back into this funk that caused me depression.
But reading this is what I really needed right now, I just wish someone would listen.

xo
D

102 | Left by Dani | Jun. 8, 2010 at 6:39pm

I cried also.

103 | Left by Krissy | Jun. 8, 2010 at 8:22pm

Thanks for this... It reminds my of why I hang on. Even after four years I am still struggling with my own worst enemy sometimes-me. The thoughts seem to be coming back; but seeing this reminds me why I need to fight... Thanks for taking the time to write this it all matters to us.

104 | Left by J | Jun. 9, 2010 at 3:43am

you really saved me....I came on this website looking for something to help and here i found it.....thankyou

105 | Left by mel | Jun. 9, 2010 at 7:58am

To everyone who is feeling alone. To those who are suffering in silence. To every person who feels insignificant or has been told they do not matter. To all the posters on this page, or to those who wanted to post something but were too afraid or didn't know what to say:

YOU ARE LOVED. YOUR STORY MATTERS. YOUR PAIN MATTERS.

To Laryssa: NEVER stop talking...your life has significance and your pain is important. I know from experience that wearing a mask and not talking will cause the pain to build up until it threatens to explode and it will begin to cause you to lose your sense of worth...and you DO have worth. The God who breathed the world into existence is the same God who knit you together in the womb and knows every intimate detail about your life (Psalm 139). For years, I felt that I had no one to talk to; that my life was not worth living, but God placed people in my life who sacrificed their time and effort to love me through the pain. God never wastes our hurts-I read in a book once this quote that has stuck with me: "Often, the greatest times of pain are the biggest megaphone of God's love." I may not know you, Laryssa, but there are no words to explain to you how your post caused my heart to break for you. I love you, but most importantly the Creator and Savior of the world loves you. Please keep talking and please keep fighting...YOU ARE IMPORTANT.

Dear, Precious "No Name Please": Don't be sorry! I too know what it has felt like to cut to feel alive...over time, one cut ceases to satisfy, so you begin cutting two times, three times, four times. Please know that you are not alone...all is not lost. Your scars tell a story...YOUR STORY. And your story is significant, just as your life is significant. The Creator of the universe loves you even when you can't feel Him. I grew up in church, so I knew of God, but I too felt that God had given up on me; that He had abandoned me; that He couldn't possibly love me. The guilt was overwhelming. The shame I felt threatened to suffocate me. I don't know your real name, but I can tell you it certainly isn't "No Name." Your name is "SOMEONE" and you have value. You are so precious to me and I've never even met you. I wish I could take you in my arms tonight and tell you how dearly you are loved...even though you may not believe me. It took me a long time to believe the words "I love you." It took dear, close friends literally holding onto me: friends sleeping in my bed with me when I didn't wwant to be alone, holding my hand in the dark and whispering that they loved me, crying for me and with me, friends who weren't intimidated by my struggles, friends who loved me no matter what, friends who witnessed first-hand the power that cutting held over my life (by that, I mean walking in on me while I was in the middle of cutting myself), friends who weren't scared to just hold onto me and sit in silence, friends who didn't always know what to say but who never seemed to grow tired of silence and tears. Those friends loved me through the days of dark, and God has finally revealed to me that there was a purpose for those years of struggle. Precious Someone, I care deeply for you...please keep fighting, and NEVER be sorry for sharing your heart and being vulnerable. Your life matters...You, Dear Someone, matter.

106 | Left by Emily | Jun. 9, 2010 at 4:30pm

This meant a lot to me...I really needed to hear it. I can't say that even at this point I am able to believe in my very core, but I needed it still. I have always been able to believe these things for others, but rarely if ever for myself. I can see the good, the blessing, the gifts and talents in the lives of others, but not in my own life--in my own being and existence. It's like I feel that my life only serves to apologize for my existence...to repay those who have been hurt, who have suffered because of my simply being alive. I find it hard to truly cherish the moments....to feel true joy...EVER...because I can't really believe that I DESERVE that...even on this day...the day of my birth 27 years ago...there is an ache inside of me...almost a lament. I don't really know how to put it into words....I should celebrate this day....that I have made it this far...that I am a survivor...and I am going to try...but still in the back of my mind the darkness tells me that it is all pointless and empty...I am practically a nomad--being displaced it seems every 3-4 months, and here I am facing yet another move (not by my own choice) and I wonder if I will ever have a home--if I will ever have that "soft place to fall" those arms to hold me when my world falls apart...maybe it's just not meant to be....

107 | Left by Bethany | Jun. 9, 2010 at 9:37pm

This meant a lot to me...I really needed to hear it. I can't say that even at this point I am able to believe in my very core, but I needed it still. I have always been able to believe these things for others, but rarely if ever for myself. I can see the good, the blessing, the gifts and talents in the lives of others, but not in my own life--in my own being and existence. It's like I feel that my life only serves to apologize for my existence...to repay those who have been hurt, who have suffered because of my simply being alive. I find it hard to truly cherish the moments....to feel true joy...EVER...because I can't really believe that I DESERVE that...even on this day...the day of my birth 27 years ago (It's June 10 where I am)...there is an ache inside of me...almost a lament. I don't really know how to put it into words....I should celebrate this day....that I have made it this far...that I am a survivor...and I am going to try...but still in the back of my mind the darkness tells me that it is all pointless and empty...I am practically a nomad--being displaced it seems every 3-4 months, and here I am facing yet another move (not by my own choice) and I wonder if I will ever have a home--if I will ever have that "soft place to fall" those arms to hold me when my world falls apart...maybe it's just not meant to be....

108 | Left by Bethany | Jun. 9, 2010 at 9:38pm

Thank you. Whenever I read this, I start crying. Because I've been neglecting myself, and I want to try and be happy....somehow.

109 | Left by Mary | Jun. 9, 2010 at 11:07pm

This made me cry, your so right were not the only one. There's thousands out there in this world that are hiding the tears,the fear the wounds and the questions. Seeing i am one of them. Your right we all do matter and we all have a purpose in this world. We all suffer and we all do need a good place to call home. People to stand by us your so right. Thank You for sharing this. This made me feel a lot better.

110 | Left by Lyncia | Jun. 10, 2010 at 3:06pm

wow u all are amazing and all ppl love theres some one for u all dont forgit that live life to the fullest and love life

111 | Left by sarenah | Jun. 10, 2010 at 4:14pm

sometimes i cant help but feel like im outside my body , third person kind of deal, all the pain i feel... the suffering I cause and that I know created. ...the suffering that i feel... the overwhelming feelings of lonelineness and worthlessnes... i sometimes fantasies about killing my self... then i would hurt so much...then i would hurt other ppl...then i would be happy.... i am alone and scared.... i want to find myself and feel needed. I want o help.. i want to break this cycle.... but then again... i wish ppl undertood. i wish my freinds would understand... i wish........ :,(((((9

112 | Left by josemed | Jun. 10, 2010 at 5:19pm

Lately I have been feeling very alone and unloved. My friends and family love me, and I know that. I just wish I could have someone hold me and kiss my forehead and tell me.."you are not alone, it will be okay, and I will be here with you every step of the way.."

113 | Left by Anon | Jun. 10, 2010 at 11:08pm

To Anon
It's good that you know your family and friends love you. I feel the same way as you all the time. When you need someone to hold you, I'm there, and I tell you, "You are not alone. It'll be okay. I will be here with you every step of the way. And I love you."

114 | Left by Theh0pe | Jun. 11, 2010 at 4:32am

i have tried many times to commit suicide and i have regretted every moment of it as i go on living my life im an agnostic so i wont say today is a gift from god thats why they call it the present but it is a gift you guys mean so much to me doing what you do i truly love this website and all other suicide prevention thanks for puttin hope in the world

115 | Left by shianne | Jun. 11, 2010 at 10:05am

I bought a TWLOHA bracelet in Hot Topic yesterday. I had no idea what it stood for. I was on the phone talking to my boyfriend on the phone today, and I read the tag for my bracelet. "Hope is real. Help is real. Your story is important." It really stood out to me. I asked my boyfriend what he thought of those words. I thought it was a suicide help group...and I was right. I looked up TWLOHA today. Most of these comments made me cry. I've been depressed for as long as I can remember. I feel like I'm worthless; all I do is hurt people; no one wants me here; why keep trying; I have no purpose. I've cut myself in the past; I have a razor in a purse by my bed....but this site means a lot. I'm glad I bought this bracelet, because, by accident, it made me see that I am not alone. And people care. But deep down I still feel alone and worthless. Thank you TWLOHA, in an aspect, I am not alone.

116 | Left by Jenika | Jun. 11, 2010 at 4:28pm

Wow, I can not explain how much this has made my day. This whole week I have felt like I was nothing, that I have no purpose, I can't handle my life and what I do does not matter to anyone. Reading this has keep the light in my life from disappearing. I admire what you all at TWLOHA do! Someday I hope to impact someones life like you have impacted mine. . . You have truly kept my spirit alive. Thank You is not enough!

117 | Left by Margery | Jun. 13, 2010 at 10:21pm

Thank you for your beautiful words, Jamie. Thank you probably isn't enough to express my gratitude.
This really made my day. =)

118 | Left by Enya | Jun. 14, 2010 at 12:00am

I always get choked up reading these posts, it really inspires me and that's really saying something considering where I'm at emotionally. Thank you.

119 | Left by Thea | Jun. 14, 2010 at 12:54am

Your blogs are so inspirational and help me get through my days, trying to promote your message everywhere and in everyway I possibly can. Although we've never met, you mean so much to me; all of you do. I'm so glad I found out about TWLOHA, it has honestly changed my life. Thankyou so much, and I hope, at least just by posting this comment, someone will read it, and they'll remember that they are not alone, and that someone loves them. I love them.
I used to be in a situation where I thought that I was alone, and that I was worthless. I worked my way out of it, and I began to realise that no, I wasn't the only person who felt so...useless and singled out and alone. So now, I try and tell people about TWLOHA, show people your blogs, and, at least spread the 6 letters, even in subtle ways such as wearing your tees, so that people can, I dont know, google them later, look them up, ask me what they mean, and share the love, just incase there is someone who is like what I was, and who needed a friend.
I feel as though I'm in debt to you, in a way. You put feelings into my heart on days where there were none, and sometimes I feel myself slipping back into old habits, but you pick me up, reminding me that life is sacred, that I am alive. This is turning into a bit of an essay, but I can't express my thanks enough. You've saved my life, you've changed my life, and now I want to do the same.
Peace, always. Laura x

120 | Left by Laura | Jun. 14, 2010 at 1:26pm

this is what ive been waiting for. maybe all my life. thankyou x

121 | Left by kay | Jun. 14, 2010 at 1:46pm

i read this on a day when i so very badly needed to feel of value. thank you.

122 | Left by e | Jun. 17, 2010 at 7:33pm

amen. and thank you for this. thank you for telling people this. its unbelievably important.

123 | Left by katie | Jun. 18, 2010 at 1:32pm

the most amazing thing about twloha is that it is such an astounding reflection of just who God is. by sharing in one another's pain and suffering, by looking suffering the eyes, we are spreading His love. we are fulfilling the great commission...sharing the gospel through our love and encouragement to one another. i have been a cutter for two and a half years. never deep and always hidden. but still something i bear every day. i just graduated high school and it terrifies me that i am going to college with this burden. reading all of your comments gives me hope, fills me with love for all of you. my heart breaks for those who are still suffering and soars for those who have been healed in christ. tonight i was feeling alone and considering going for the blade again, but i decided to take a moment and read your words. they are life changing. thank you jamie for this blog. thank you to all of you for your honesty and vulnerability. you are truly beautiful.

124 | Left by Kristen | Jun. 18, 2010 at 8:00pm

you don't know me , you don't know my struggles , and you don't know my pain that I secretly deal with day in and day out . Reading what you just wrote Jamie makes me feel like you do , you tapped into a little piece of my heart with that . you broke down maybe about a block or two that was placed in my wall . you dig deep , and all I can really say to you is thank you . You make me realize that in some way in this wicked and twisted world that I am something good , or even crazier I am of value . Thank you Jamie !

125 | Left by Gabriella | Jun. 20, 2010 at 12:28pm

Thank you so much. i just found this cite and i will be visiting often. i used to cut. my best friend was the only one who was there for me and today he means the world to me. Tnak you for your writing and thank you for creating this group. Thank you everyone for commenting and i want to let you know, that you are all loved. I love you. i feel your pain. I want you to feel loved because you are. You mean the world to someone and someone means the world to you. please take them into consideration. They matter. They care about you. I care about you. I love you. They love you. WE love you. Have strength.

126 | Left by Katie | Jun. 22, 2010 at 4:16pm

This is amaziing! I never knew there was I web site for people like me, people with depression. My best friend told me about it and told me it will make me feel better. Everyday is a struggle with deppression and trying not to cut my self and this makes me feel like there is light at the end of the tunnel. I do not feel alone. Everday I try to remind myself that there will be one day where lithium will make me feel happy, I will feel be happy on my own. Thank You!

127 | Left by Bianca | Jun. 22, 2010 at 6:29pm

in my lowest of times when i feel like death is my only option, i find things like this to save me for the day.

i'm a cutter and i can't stop myself. i'm trying so hard. i have had so many thoughts of dying lately, and i find myself back on this website. you, jamie, and everyone that runs this site are aiding those of us who suffer and die a little more inside each day.

my biggest desire is to be cared about, and this post really shows me that someone out there will care one day.

thank you. you do much more than you know.

128 | Left by Taylor | Jun. 25, 2010 at 3:32pm

this gives me so much hope. my life has been beyond low for the past few years and everytime i feel like i've hit rock bottom it gets worse. when i found twolha, it gave me hope. like i might actually stand a chance in this world. i still want to die everyday of my life. but now i feel like there are people out there who know what i feel. like someone out there understands what it feels like to feel dead inside, and to feel so alone.

there is no possible way to express my gratitude to all of you. you've given me hope, and possibly have saved my life. i dont know how to thank you enough for what you've given me. thank you

129 | Left by Emily | Jun. 25, 2010 at 5:51pm

You have an amazing way with words, Jaime.
I'm so glad to have found your message.
Thank you.

Love to everyone.

130 | Left by Abbey | Jun. 25, 2010 at 9:45pm

I have read this over and over since it was published for a while now and it has never fail to make me feel better. Thank you, Jamie. Thank you.

131 | Left by Elfy | Jun. 26, 2010 at 3:30pm

thank you, thank you, thank you

132 | Left by anya | Jun. 28, 2010 at 6:16am

thank you for screaming that into my deaf heart. :)

133 | Left by Leesha | Jun. 28, 2010 at 10:46am

I have anxiet issues and everytime i have an "episode" i want to cut so bad, i feel as if i am useless and the world is against me. This, this right here is pure hope.The only thing that comforts me when i have an "episode" is music and sometimes i dont have the will power to get up and put some on. And now, now i have this. Thank you higher power for bringing me here. This brough tears of joy to my eyes.
Thank you so much jamie i know this is for everyone but it feels so good.

134 | Left by Liam | Jun. 28, 2010 at 9:27pm

i love this very much. it makes me feel better. im trying to figure out life and why i want to end it. thank you for this.. thank you thank you thank you.
thank you for reminding me im not the only one who is suffering..

135 | Left by sarah | Jul. 1, 2010 at 2:59pm

hi.

I don't know what to say.
I'll never forget you guys, all those of you who have responded to the things i've said. Please know that the feelng that i got from seeing your responses was indescribable. I wish that i knew you so i could thank you properly.

i just got out of the hospital about a week ago. My mama saw my leg and made me go to the er. I didn't know they were so deep. I just couldnt feel it. they made me go upstairs, to the psych ward. I know many of you can probably relate to that feeling. I've never been more afraid.

jamie? jamie :( why didn't it help me? Why can't i stop? Why does the past and myself and the world and everything, why can't it go away? this is never going to end, is it? how can it? i feel like everything that i can do to try and get better has already been done, and god jamie i'm trying so so hard. i'm trying so hard, please don't be mad at me i really am, but i'm so trapped
i'm so sorry. i shouldn't even be posting this. I'm so sorry guys. every single one of you is an angel, your all just angels. i'm so sorry that i can't stop. please. please forgive me i just don't know what to do. years and years and years of this hell have defined me and now it's my best friend. I just get lower and lower each day, lying and hurting everything and everyone. i'm just a monster. oh my god. is that why god can't find me? is that why i can't stop?

oh my god. i'm just. i'm just so sorry you guys :( i just wanted to apologize is all. I'm sorry.

i'm sorry. this is too damn long again.

136 | Left by No Name Please | Jul. 2, 2010 at 11:58am

Thank you for this post.

As many of you I'm really struggling too. Another suïcide attempt about a month and a half ago. Didn't work, just made everything even worse. Feels like I've lost everything I cared about and nothing matters anymore, but I know that's not reality. I know that there are people who care about me and I need to try and go on with my life. One babystep at a time trying to see the positive and beauty in small things in life and knowing that this pain will also pass...someday.

Don't give up darlings, you're all worth so much more than you know right now. Life can be really hard and unfair, but if we try to help each other we'll get through it, and maybe in a while we can throw off the heavy stuff that brings us down and genuinly be happy.

I don't know you guys but I already love you. Because you exist and because you deserve to be loved. Because I want to feel loved too. xxx

137 | Left by Star | Jul. 3, 2010 at 7:53am

Thank you. Reading this makes it easier, I need to hear that.

138 | Left by Anon | Jul. 3, 2010 at 7:00pm

Hi Jamie, I want to say thank you for this, beautiful, beautiful post.I recently found out about TWLOHA by asking a close friend about his really cool looking shirts, and I've fallen in love with your organization. I've struggled with a progressively worsening depression for the past 10 years since I was 8 years old. I've lost an uncle, and 2 very beautiful, and close girl friends to suicide. I don't tell anyone about my issues, problems, fears and pain, I just bottle everything inside myself so as to not scare anyone else, because I've always been the person to cheer everyone else up and help them when they feel their worst. I hug my friends each and every day, male or female, and tell them I love them with all my heart, and I do, so that they don't for a second feel what I feel most every day. Shamefully, I too have circled the suicidal drain too close twice. Something always pulled me out, but I never knew what. I've cut, and I hide each scar under the wristbands that hold my guitar picks, because I play music to make others happy. That song part of the blog meant a lot to me. It all did. I recently have been feeling so down on my outlook on life, on everything, but this, it simply made me feel alive again. It made me feel like there was an invisible spotlight on my heart. I hope to soon join this wonderful organization to help others who suffer as well. Also, you've inspired me to try and find help for myself. So I don't have to hide from myself any longer.

To No Name Please, understand, you, yes YOU, are a beautiful, functioning, living, breathing, gift blessed upon this earth. You deserve to live, and feel, and feel loved, and warm, and accepted, as each and every other person. Your beauty cannot be replaced, or recreated. Every rose in a garden is different from the others, and once it's picked, it can never be replaced. You're unique, and this world needs you. I will give you my number and stay by the phone each day if I have to, to talk to you, to hear you out. Please don't give up, your post brought tears to my eyes. Stay with us, and show us the beautiful person you are. I don't know you, and I don't know if I ever will, but I love you.

139 | Left by Thank You | Jul. 4, 2010 at 11:26am

i am 12. i sometimes think what it would feel like to be dead. what would run through my head as i draw my last breath. sometimes i wish i was dead.

my brother has screwed up. and my mum has messed up once before aswell. but she is moving foward. she relies on me, i am all she has.

i cry myself to sleep. i dont want to be here anymore. i used to believe in god. but now i dont know. i want to, but i dont know if i can anymore. maybe i am just not good enough to be loved by someone so perfect. i wish things could work out just once. there are some days when i just want to scream. some days where i just to vanish.

no one knows all this though. you are the first ones i am sharing with. i hide behind a smile. hide behind the things of the world. but at the same time, it is the things of the world that break me.

although right now i may not see the light. i know there MUST be some end to this dark tunnel. a way out. maybe i will find it one day. maybe ill ve to see the light. cos ive heard its beautiful. i really hope i do.

for once these tears that are so often on my face are not of saddness, anger, jelousy or defeat. they are of some great victory, some great joy... some great love.

sometimes i think i should talk to someone. but i dont anyone to know who i am. i dont want the people around me to know the real me. but i want to express it.

i am 12. i sometimes think what it would feel like to be dead. what would run through my head as i draw my last breath. sometimes i wish i was dead. but i am trying to move past it. i WILL move past it. i will make it. i will win the fight against my own self.

there is hope somewhere out there. i hope i will catch it. stumble upon it as humans stumble upon love. stumble upon a greater day. grab hope out of what seems a bag of nothing. find love in my heart. be able to sleep one night without constant nagging. believe in something with no proof, with no doubt of its truth. have no expectations of failure. but believe in love. believe that i will make it. i will prove those who expect me to crash wrong. show them that i will find the light. because i am worth something. and my story deserves to be told.

chinel

140 | Left by chinel | Jul. 5, 2010 at 3:44am

There are so many things I could say in response to this, but I can't even begin to figure out how to word them. So, simply, thank you. So very much.

141 | Left by Alex | Jul. 7, 2010 at 9:36am

Thank you..so much. I've read this almost everyday since you wrote it, and it says so much in so few words. I think this was something everyone was looking for.

142 | Left by Katie | Jul. 10, 2010 at 3:14pm

Thank you so much. I really needed this today. Nd it helped so much. Thank you Jamie, ur amazing nd so is twloha

143 | Left by Christina | Jul. 13, 2010 at 7:58am

you saved me from suicide

144 | Left by zach | Jul. 22, 2010 at 9:17pm

What if you have nothing left to give? it's never enough. i'm so tired of holding everyone else together. what about me?

145 | Left by marty | Aug. 8, 2010 at 12:22pm

Hey, It's Tiare. I need too say thanks for this, But that girl should NEVER think about suiside, i have before i know, i've been threw it But seriously, it's really NOT worth it at all.. Just act like you dont care, put on a fake smile. i know it's hard but you gotta do it. - Tiare.

146 | Left by Tiare. | Sep. 13, 2010 at 1:29am

thing i found the other day in a song: excelsior. It's latin: ever higher. Thank you.

147 | Left by Zarya | Sep. 28, 2010 at 8:14pm

today was a big step for me; I told my best friend my deepest darkest secret and then he showed me this blog. What struck me was "you deserve a place that feels like home". and I'm starting to feel a little bit of hope, but i know that will take a while. but this really helped me today. I feel like there could be a place in this world for me, i just have to find it. ...Thank you.

148 | Left by n/a | Oct. 7, 2010 at 5:08pm

what should i do? im in love, i havent ever felt this way before and the girl i love has a boyfriend.. She makes me feel like nothing in the world can hurt me, but she hurts me everyday... i love her so much and i need to move on, but i cant.... im so hung over her... i just wanna die so everything goes back to the way it should...

149 | Left by K.M. | Nov. 1, 2010 at 11:27pm

My sister sent me this link for me to read, cause I have been suffering anxiety and depression for at least half a year now, and this gave me tons of hope, it was so beautifully written that it brought tears to my eyes.. Thank you, thank you, thank you! I love you so much for what your doing.

150 | Left by Gabriella | Nov. 17, 2010 at 9:32am

I know I've commented on this before but I was searching through this today because I need hope. This made me cry, so hard. I almost killed myself tonight, nothing anyone did or said was convincing me not to. My best friend couldn't even do anything for me. This was what I needed, I just feel..amazing now. I am still crying but it's because I realize now I'm not alone. And I have my friends, and I have twloha. This...just I can't even...I saved it so I can go to it when I feel like nothing. We all matter.

151 | Left by Kerrin | Dec. 5, 2010 at 9:40pm

Thank you so much. You've reminded me that I do have something to rely on; Music. If it weren't for music, I probably wouldn't be here.
I've been contemplating ending it for so long now, I'm not even brave enough to do that. Thank you so much for To Write Love On Her Arms. I am beginning to feel alive again, slowly but surely.

152 | Left by Anon | Dec. 10, 2010 at 3:20pm

this was absolutely beautiful. It's one of the small things that make you smile when you need to smile the most. I love how is been put together too. For someone who used to cut it really inspires me to stop and to get back on track. Thanks TWLOHA. xx

153 | Left by martinio | Jan. 2, 2011 at 4:30pm

Thank you so much for this. I have been asking myself if I matter at all for a few years now. I'm married with no affection whatsoever from my husband for 4 years now. I have been so lonely, so invisible. Your post was just what I needed to hear. I must be brave and have the courage to do what's best for me. To know that I deserve to be loved.

154 | Left by Me | Jan. 9, 2011 at 1:58pm

Jamie, please just keep writing. We all struggle with it. but the fact that we are writing on here means that we are winning what feels like an impossible war. We are winning what none of us can win alone. I totally believe that this website saves lives, it sure as hell at least makes mine better.

155 | Left by Ava | Jan. 29, 2011 at 12:57am

Thank you so much for this.It's really touch on my mind.

156 | Left by ceonan | Mar. 1, 2011 at 11:33am

Thank you so much. This post and everything about Twloha is just so amazing and helpful. I'm from Germany and there is nothinng like Twloha. I'm very glad I found this page.
This post helps a lot. My best friend and I both suffer depressions and self-injury. Yesterday I showed her this and she nearly started to cry. It made us hope again. Thank you so much.
Love, Melissa

157 | Left by Melissa | Mar. 4, 2011 at 2:50am

I read this specific blog post every time I feel at my lowest. The words mean so much to me that I'm seriously considering tattooing the last phrase on my shoulder to serve as a constant reminder that I'm not alone and that I matter.

To some people, they may just be words on a blog, but they have been so much more to me. They have helped dry the tears and aid me in making the realization that, as grim as life seems right now, I can still have hope for a better future.

Thank you, Jamie.

158 | Left by Theresa | Aug. 12, 2011 at 10:49pm

i hurt my self so many times i cant keep track. but im done iv had help, from brave soals like you jamie.
iv burned, cut, bruised, burned
burned
burned
burned
burned
burned
burned
burned burned burned burned
burned.
The flames scare me thats why i burned.i fear fire more than any thing. so i burned.
but than god came.thank you

159 | Left by Breathe | Aug. 16, 2011 at 1:56am

A friend sent me this awhile ago... I read it every time I'm feeling down, and it always makes me feel like there's something to live for. If not him, then at least for myself. Thank you.

160 | Left by Anon | Jan. 2, 2012 at 9:37pm