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  • Aug. 15, 2010 at 1:03am

    Hi Guys. 

    i hope this finds you well, enjoying your Saturday night or Sunday morning or wherever this finds you. i am on an airplane, flying from New York City to Portland - somewhere over the middle states at the moment - headed to Portland for the last stop of this summer's Vans Warped Tour. i'm excited to see Chris and Jason from our team, Alex and Ivory from Invisible Children, Bryce and The Rocket Summer guys. Excited to meet The Summer Set as well. Our team has spent the last eight weeks living and travelling with these folks, setting up and tearing down each day, finding shade under tents and hope in favorite songs, surprised along the way by stories and moments and conversations. We are more than grateful to Kevin, Sarah and Kate who run Warped Tour and allow TWLOHA to be part of it. This is our fourth summer and it's truly become one of our favorite things, a vehicle that allows us to connect with thousands of music-loving young people across the USA and Canada for two months each year. We are fans of music and our message of hope and help is one for people, and so we keep coming back. 

    That's all i'm going to say about Warped for now. i've asked Chris and Jason to share more, to take you into their world, tell some stories and paint some pictures...

    On a different note...

    My friend Jon, in addition to being my friend, is one of my heroes. Jon is the sort of person who stops to talk to homeless people. He is the one who said to me that people get stuck in moments and he is also the one who told me, in a difficult season, "Hope is not a myth." Though Jon and i live in the same city, i had not seen him in months. This was my fault. We met for coffee yesterday morning and the conversation was deeply personal and meaningful for me. i shared some things that were hard to share, talked about feeling lost in my story. i don't know why but i expected my words to be met with disappointment and judgement - shame has a way of telling us we deserve those things. Instead, and this happened several times at meals with friends this week, i was met with grace and compassion and kindness, people saying i could call them in the middle of the night and people saying we should hang out again soon. 

    Anyway, near the end of my conversation with Jon, he asked if i had read the book Life After God by Douglas Coupland. When i said no, Jon stood up instantly, walked out of the coffee shop and straight to a book store a few blocks away. 

    i finished the book just now, started it yesterday and finished it today (i am never that guy. That said, it's worth noting that the book is short and has a lot of pictures). i'm writing all of this to tell you that it was great, that it put words to things i've been feeling recently, questions i'd been afraid to ask and things i'd been afraid to say. The book is fiction and, for me, it was a book about the human condition, which is to say it is a book about the feelings, realities, miracles and questions that we all experience as people living life on this planet, getting older over time, reflecting on our stories. The book is painful at times. The book is also beautiful. The storyteller's voice reminded me of Charlie from The Perks of Being a Wallflower, if Charlie were to tell us another story years down the road. The writing is honest and raw. i found it full of truth.

    i want to share a couple quotes from Life After God:

    "When you’re young, you always feel that life hasn’t yet begun — that “life” is always scheduled to begin next week, next month, next year, after the holidays — whenever. But then suddenly you’re old and the scheduled life didn’t arrive. You find yourself asking, ‘Well then, exactly what was it I was having — that interlude — the scrambly madness — all that time I had before?’

    "I realized a capacity for not feeling lonely carried a very real price, which was the threat of feeling nothing at all."

    "A need burns inside us to share with others what we are feeling. Beyond a certain age, sincerity ceases to feel pornographic. It is though the coolness that marked our youth is itself a retrovirus that can only leave you feeling empty."

    Peace to you tonight, from this airplane headed west.
    jamie

    PS: i hope the book finds you like a friend. Also, i hope you find some people and i hope you let them know you. It's very important. The fear is a lie. It will be worth it in the end.

    PS2: If you're at Warped Tour in Oregon tomorrow, do say hello. 



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Comments (13)

I really wanna find this book and read it

1 | Left by Savoy | Aug. 14, 2010 at 10:50pm


I love what yall stand for! I wanted to come here to find help but when i saw mental help facility, i pretty much bailed, my worst fear is bein locked in a mental institution. But my mom sent me to therapy, its not workin so well, any ideas that dont involve a mental institue?
Please help me.

2 | Left by Sam | Aug. 15, 2010 at 12:04am


I would really like it if you made an appearance at my school in Markham On, Canada in 2011. We hold this thing called Clean Teen Week and at the end hear from a speaker who has made it through something amazing or done something amazing. You are an inspiration. We could really learn a lot from you and your organization. Look me up.

-Ace

3 | Left by Aaliyah Hoo Kim- Baker | Aug. 15, 2010 at 12:05am


Hi Jamie,

Great insights. Thanks for being such an inspiration to so many people. I can relate when you wrote about "people saying I could call them in the middle of the night." I've got two friends who keep their phones on vibrate while they're sleeping in case I need a listening ear, and I always do the same for them.

Be well. Hope the flight went smoothly. Hope you're doing ok.
HOPE IS NOT A MYTH.
-Jovie

4 | Left by Jovie | Aug. 15, 2010 at 8:22am


Hi Jamie,
Thanks for sharing this, I'm going to go check on that book. It sounds raw, real, bold and full of motivation in a sense to get you going.
Hope you had a safe flight,
Amy

5 | Left by Amy | Aug. 16, 2010 at 7:37am


Hope is not a myth.

I really want to read this book now, it sounds really honest and just REAL.

And thanks for your realness, Jamie. Your muchness. (: It means a lot to a lot of people that you take the time to care for millions of struggling people that you don't even know.

6 | Left by Kendra | Aug. 16, 2010 at 5:32pm


I fear that one day the only books I read will be ones recommended by the TWLOHA team haha Not that that's a bad thing :P Definitely gonna see if I can find this one :)

7 | Left by Emily | Aug. 17, 2010 at 4:51am


This was a beautiful blog. I have to check out this book when I get from vacation.

8 | Left by Jasmine | Aug. 17, 2010 at 5:37pm


ugh, you are a beautiful, blessed man.

9 | Left by Iman | Aug. 20, 2010 at 9:21pm


I'm definitely going to buy this book.
I need the inspiration.
xx

10 | Left by Dakota | Aug. 21, 2010 at 2:18pm


I stumbled upon this book about two years ago on Stephen Christian's (of Anberlin) website (www.modesty.blogspot.com great blog per se!). It's one his faves too, so i picked it up straight away. It is indeed amazing.

Shortly after finishing Life After God, I bought another book by Douglas Coupland called The Gum Thief but i find harder to read mostly because it's longer than LAG.

If you're planning to get this book, what are you waiting for? Go get it tomorrow, or today.

11 | Left by Abdul | Aug. 24, 2010 at 4:57am


Thanks so much for sharing your thoughts, Jamie. I always love reading what you have to say. I left for the weekend to visit a much needed family vacation only to find everything spiraling out of control. When things start to pile up like that, it feels like there's no escape...

I desperately want to read Life After God. I drove an hour away from the lakehouse to the nearest book store, but they didn't have any at that location. I hope to find it soon, although it's so difficult to find it where I am.

12 | Left by Amanda Kate | Aug. 30, 2010 at 1:21pm


I really want to read this book. It's something that I can probably really relate too. :)

13 | Left by Natalie | Oct. 16, 2010 at 12:31pm

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