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  • Jul. 10, 2010 at 12:45pm

    Chloe reflects on Bamboozle Roadshow

    “I lost my cousin to suicide three days ago.” - West Palm Beach, FL

    “My daughter cuts and I don’t know why.” - Arlington, TX

    “I’m schizophrenic and have been suicidal for the past few years, but I have hope." - Houston, TX

    “My best friend is going into treatment this week. She’s been going in and out of centers for the past four years. I just want to help her.” - San Antonio, TX

    “I’m bipolar and I passed it on to both my children.” - Clarkston, MI

    “All I want to do is stop. Everyone is scared but I don’t know what to do.” - Charlotte, NC

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    Thank you. I wish there was something deeper or more profound to say to those of you who visited the TWLOHA table and shared your story at The Bamboozle Roadshow this year. But nothing feels like it’s quite enough or conveys how truly grateful my heart is for having met all of you. The comments above are just a few of the many stories I was fortunate enough to hear during the six-week tour.

    The main reason we go on the road so much is to meet people where they are – to hear their hearts, and to present them with the idea, sometimes new, sometimes not so new, that they don’t have to live their lives alone. One of the biggest honors for me (and I’m comfortable saying this for our team as well) is being someone that a complete stranger trusts enough to share their darkest moments with. It’s beautifully overwhelming to be a person someone feels safe talking to about their struggles after only a brief introduction of names. My hope is that in these exchanges they (and possibly you) feel a bit of freedom from pain, and a sense of understanding. I also hope that you are able to be on the receiving end of conversations like this, to be someone that someone else needs.

    I left for this tour with a heavy heart and hoped that the road would make it light again. What I found out was something I already knew. It wasn’t the road that was making things easier, it was people; seeing old friends, making new ones, and meeting all of you. It was sharing TWLOHA and parts of myself with others. “Your story is important.” We say that a lot because it’s true. What you have to say, and what you’ve experienced deserves to be known by others.

    I wish for you this summer, and all the days after, that you have someone to share your story with.

    With Love,
    Chloe

    P.S. Thank you to Bamboozle for letting us join your traveling summer camp. Thank you to so many of the artists for being curious about what we do, for wanting to get involved, or for showing continued support. We’re grateful for our friends in Boys Like Girls, Forever The Sickest Kids, Third Eye Blind, LMFAO, The Ready Set, and Cady Groves who all rocked TWLOHA at some point during the tour. And a big thank you to my dear friend Martin of Boys Like Girls for wearing a TWLOHA shirt everyday of the tour and for all of your support.

    Posted in Journal, Merch, Music by Chloe Grabanski

Comments (9)

I love your blogs Chloe they are very well written, and they always embody all parts of the twloha mission statement.

1 | Left by Stephanie | Jul. 10, 2010 at 11:51am


agreed, I love the blogs by Chloe. They are so real, and moving. <3 <3 <3

2 | Left by Hannah | Jul. 10, 2010 at 1:07pm


amazing, i wish i could have been there. Very well writtin.

3 | Left by Xandra | Jul. 10, 2010 at 1:33pm


sometimes...When you find something out..yes u already knew it. You just didnt want to face it. Because sometimes it's easier to go through life acting as though there are no cracks at all in their world's fake innocense.

4 | Left by ally....always and froever :( | Jul. 11, 2010 at 2:17pm


Please help. I don't have depression, but my father has experienced it. What is even more difficult is that he has other personality disorders and has hurt my sisters and I very much over the last few years. We are hurting, and avoiding him at all costs, which I know is hurting him in a huge way. For some reason I find it difficult to even talk to him now, even though I know he needs love from us. I wish I could find it in my heart to speak to him or just say hello. What makes me more anxious to do this is that he hurts us each time we've even done this.

5 | Left by Jem | Jul. 11, 2010 at 5:52pm


Beautiful. Thank you, Chloe.

6 | Left by Kendra | Jul. 12, 2010 at 12:04pm


Jem,
Please know that I am writing this to you as someone who has had anger struggles. I hope you will e-mail twloha, I have and they send very nice messages. I struggle with depression,cutting, obsessive hand washing and repeating actions. I hope that you will send an message to twloha. Just click on the contact link at the bottom. I hope you do not resort to self-destructive behavior to cope with your pain. I hope you know your father still loves you. I think from your comment you do. I hope that you have a great day.
In regret of my anger,
Stephanie

7 | Left by Stephanie | Jul. 12, 2010 at 5:21pm


Jem I also aplogize my comment is repetitive I meant well in saying that I care, and that you should e-mail the charity. I hope that you understand what kind of hell depression is, and realize we still love those who we hurt.

8 | Left by Stephanie | Jul. 13, 2010 at 6:02am


These blogs are moving.
I just hope I get the chance to tell you my story one day.

9 | Left by Rachael | Jul. 17, 2010 at 9:46pm

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