Took the survey! (you should too.)
-Jovie

1 | Left by Jovie | Oct. 19, 2010 at 1:00pm

to write love on her arms saved me. im 14, and i smoke drink and cut.. i think about death everyday and you wouldnt even realize it becouse im such a happy preppy girl. but if you really knew me, im depressed everyday, nobody cares about me, im super fake to people so they dont think anythings wrong with me, and i cut to make it go away.But a month ago a new girl came to my school, and saw my cuts, shes the first one to ever see them and it was on accident. she took out a sharpie grabbed my arm and wrote To write love on her arms

2 | Left by emily | Oct. 19, 2010 at 1:38pm

Took the survey, and I'm proud that I did. :) Thanks for all you do, TWLOHA.

3 | Left by Lacey | Oct. 19, 2010 at 1:39pm

Just took the survey. I'm glad I did and I'm willing to learn to walk on water for TWLOHA. You saved my life.
-Katie

4 | Left by Katie | Oct. 19, 2010 at 1:57pm

I had a rough night last night, so I wrote this poem today in science class.

TO WRITE LOVE
on her arms
on her legs
on her hopes
on her fears
on her dreams
on her tears
on the faces of her peers

TO ERASE THE HATE
make her feel the weight
of her parents
of her life
of all the pain
and all the strife
and erase the doom
of her ever-impending fate

TO REMEMBER
whoe helped you through it all
the people who wouldn't let you fall
down, down, down into the black hole
people call "the gift of life."

5 | Left by Elisabeth | Oct. 19, 2010 at 3:18pm

TWLOHA helped me stop cutting and it helped me save my best friend from committing suicide

6 | Left by Gianna | Oct. 19, 2010 at 5:57pm

I live with my dad and my step mom she dont like me but she dont treat me bad but when i think of it my dads mean to me every day he screams and yells at my some times i just want to run away and i just dont know what do. WHAT SHOULD I DO

7 | Left by patience | Oct. 19, 2010 at 6:17pm

Took the survey.

Everybody else should too.

Thanks for everything, twloha.

8 | Left by Kendra | Oct. 19, 2010 at 6:25pm

Took it. TWLOHA is amazing. Thank you for everything you do and continue to do.

Also, Elisabeth, that is beautiful. I'm going to save it to read sometimes, if you don't mind =)

9 | Left by Sara | Oct. 19, 2010 at 6:29pm

Took the survey. I am so glad that I have found a way to use my own trials and tribulations with Depression and such to help those who are struggling now and to just hopefully use my life story to reach out to those in need off someone! Thanks TWLOHA

10 | Left by BobbiRose | Oct. 19, 2010 at 6:54pm

Sara-
Feel free to save it, just please give me credit. Anyone, save it, share it, hang it on your wall. I wrote it not only to help myself, but to help you too. :)

11 | Left by Elisabeth | Oct. 19, 2010 at 7:06pm

Aw, Elisabeth, thats a really really sad but beautiful poem :)
Everyone has those nights, i hope you feel better now :) Take Care!

Also, i'm gonna take this survey when i get home :)
Take Care People, Spread the Love.

12 | Left by nomi | Oct. 20, 2010 at 6:21am

I took the survey ^_^
and I'm great that i found "To Write Love On Her Arms."
it has help me a lot lately.
Thanks for everything.

13 | Left by Maddie | Oct. 20, 2010 at 7:52am

twolha saved my life more than once

14 | Left by Cheyenne | Oct. 20, 2010 at 1:39pm

totally worth it (:
everyone should do it.
thank you TWLOHA

15 | Left by Taryn | Oct. 20, 2010 at 3:11pm

I love this..im a cutter..and i still am..depression nd stuff..i want help..i cried wen i saw this..uguys r amazing.

16 | Left by Haley | Oct. 20, 2010 at 3:42pm

My best friend and i just had a fight and I screwed up big time... she was the one I went to when I needed help and was cutting and now when she sees me in the hall she goes the other way. It makes me want to stop and die. I have no one anymore. We talked and she told me she can't trust me anymore. For the last week I have tried to kill myself every night... This website has helped me realize that I'm not alone and some one still cares...
thank you TWLOHA

17 | Left by Elise | Oct. 20, 2010 at 4:49pm

Took the survey:) TWLOHA is helping me seek help for my self injury

18 | Left by Sienna O | Oct. 20, 2010 at 5:41pm

at my school me and many of my friends have been spreading word about t.w.l.o.a. one of my friends who is male asked if this is a place for only girls to receive help.? this i thought to be a good question and i wouold like to know if it is for girls or girls and guys.?

19 | Left by sierra | Oct. 20, 2010 at 6:34pm

Sierra,
TWLOHA is for everyone(:
boys and girls

20 | Left by Kay | Oct. 21, 2010 at 1:09pm

Took the survey(: take it!

21 | Left by carly | Oct. 21, 2010 at 5:55pm

To Write Love On Her Arms has given me hope. I am 14 and suffering with depression, bi-polar disorder, self injury, and suicidal thoughts and actions. Kids at school notice the marks on my arm, but they say nothing. They didn't care. TWLOHA cares. I can see it from their uplifting stories. They gave me hope. TWLOHA saved my life. Thank you.

22 | Left by Lucy | Oct. 21, 2010 at 7:31pm

I suffered from depression and debilitating anxiety for over 5 years as a teen. It led to thoughts of suicide and self harm that lasted far too long. It's been nearly 5 years since I considered harming myself in such a way and TWLOHA played and continues to play a role in my recovery.

The least I could do is take a 5 minute survey and I hope everyone else takes the time as well!

On behalf of someone who TWOLHA has helped to heal, I just want to say, Thank you.

23 | Left by Courtney | Oct. 21, 2010 at 9:36pm

I felt like the only girl with depression issues. I wont tell my parents half the stuff I dont because they wont understand or try to understand, or even want to hear about it. i took the surevey,Im glad I did and Im glad I found this website
to write love on her arm.

24 | Left by Kyla dyer | Oct. 21, 2010 at 11:41pm

Elise,
We are all here for you. We are here for everyone. we are the TWLOHA community. I know how you feel. When my best friend and I stopped talking, it nearly killed me. They were the person I went to for everything. They were in the middle of recovering from cutting and I came in and she helped me with mine. But her and I no longer talk anymore and it's killing me. almost literally. Just want you to know that you aren't alone. we all love you. friendly love is love for all! and Elisabeth, that was a beautiful poem. I'm going to put that on my wall if thats ok. I love you TWLOHA!

25 | Left by Dylan | Oct. 22, 2010 at 1:08am

took the survey. TWLOHA has helped me a lot. i hope it continues to help many more people. whenever i start to feel bad i remind myself of TWLOHA and write LOVE on the back of both of my hands to remind myself that im not struggling alone. it helps a lot =] TWLOHA has helped a few of my friends get through some really hard times when even i couldnt help them. thanks A LOT TWLOHA. You've made a big difference in my life and the lives of many others =]

26 | Left by Shara | Oct. 22, 2010 at 1:28am

just took the surveyy! :D
hope it helpss.

27 | Left by Manda (: | Oct. 22, 2010 at 6:40am

My name is Kylie.My friend told me about TWLOHA.I wanted to find out more,and when I did...I didnt know how to react. I am young.only 11 but I have so many feelings inside of me. I want to explod,but I won't. I cannot be rude. I do not want to upset my mother and father, my friends and foes. I have always thought that I was unwanted, Unloved, Uncared for, just another usless being. My parents always think I lie... the truth is, I never do. TWLOHA has made me think twice... its made me look harder. I realize now, That I am loved, wanted, and cared for. Even though I had a hard childhood (Years 3-8)I notice now that my mother did those things to me because she loved me. she wanted me to be the perfect lady. I always thought it was because the oppsite. If you look closer you see the truth. Look up, you see the stars. You see dreams and wishes... I wish I wish Apon a star.

28 | Left by Kylie | Oct. 22, 2010 at 5:09pm

TWLOHA has helped many and I am so grateful that I found them because they too have helped me and given me hope for a better tomorrow. I'm 15 years old and I began feeling depressed when I was 11 years old. I was only a little kid, I always thought that kids shouldn't be worrying about being depressed at such a young age. I was so selfish, thinking that I was the only one going through this much pain, that no one else felt what I felt. I had no one to go to, no one to trust and to this day I am still recovering over depression and thoughts of suicide. But I'm not giving up. I won't let depression win and take over me. To Write Love on Her Arms

29 | Left by Vanessa | Oct. 23, 2010 at 5:22pm

This website, is my comfort. My support. My everything. I am a cutter. I struggle with depression, anxiety, and an eating disorder.

But, I've found hope, in the form of a website♥

To Write Love On Her Arms

30 | Left by Abbey | Oct. 23, 2010 at 9:06pm

TWLOHA saved my life, i am now 17 years old. a year ago i was in a mental hospital for suicidal attempts. i had a nearly succesful overdose. I am so thankful for this website and everything it offers. it makes you not only feel that you are not alone but you come to know for a fact that your not.twloha has helped me stop self injury alcohol abuse and drug abuse. i am a different person today because of it, its my hope when i feel empty.
To Write Love on Her Arms, we all love you

31 | Left by Kale | Oct. 23, 2010 at 10:41pm

I used to cut 2 years ago. some people may think I've stopped wanting to cut, but I haven't. It's like smoking, (even though I don't smoke, it's just a analogy) you may go for years without a cigarette, but you still want one. I've been put in a mental hospital twice and I'm afraid to go back and be a failure to my parents, my friends, and my therapists I have a boyfriend who says he loves me, but I feel like I can't believe him because I'm not worth loving. I journal and write poetry and lately they're getting darker and darker. I want to tell me parents but I'm scared to. I don't want to go back to riverwoods (thats the mental hospital I went to) and hurt my family. almost 2 years ago, I told my parents I was cutting. I remember my mom immediatly burst out crying. I went to riverwoods that night and stayed for a week. during that time, my parents read my journal, poetry and even my fake suicide note. I made my dad cry. I've never seen him cry. I don't want my parents to go through that again, so please someone help me. I'm overweight, 14, and I'm really depressed. I don't know how my bf can love me if I don't even love myself! so if anyone reads this, please write back.
Love,
KIm

32 | Left by kim | Oct. 24, 2010 at 5:56pm

Kim,
I just know that someone loves you,
someone cares for you,
and your not alone.
Even if it's one person.
SOMEONE loves you and they care about you,
they don't care about your past.
They love you for you.
Keep that in your heart.
Use it when you're in the depths of your anger.
With love,
Grace Servon

33 | Left by Grace | Oct. 24, 2010 at 8:35pm

Thanks TWLOHA.
You and everyone behind this are amazing

34 | Left by Neidy | Oct. 24, 2010 at 8:48pm

i have been cutting for 6 years now- my parents have found out three times. they wont listen when i tell them something is wrong. i dont know how to make them listen. my mum gets upset when i talk about going to see a psychologist- she says that i dont trust her. i dont know what to do. all i ever feel like doing is cutting. i just need someone to actually listen to me, not talk at me and tell me that its all in my head and its stress. it makes me feel like a child. but i dont know what else to do besides stand there and take it.

35 | Left by korynne | Oct. 25, 2010 at 12:48am

to Korynne and Kim,
Breathe.
You were meant for amazing things.
Its going to get better.
-Jovie.

36 | Left by Jovie | Oct. 25, 2010 at 1:00pm

The day TWLOHA comes to the UK officially will be the day I will have a constant smile on my face

37 | Left by Sarah | Oct. 25, 2010 at 2:58pm

Dear TWLOHA,
I was reading the comments. I see hope and fear. I see love and pain. I want to help I'm young, but I want to make a change. Any suggestions? I don't know where to start.

38 | Left by Sami | Oct. 25, 2010 at 5:37pm

first i would like to say "i settle down a twisted up from disguised as a smile". these are lyrics from my fav song from paramore who are also with this movement.

My name is tiffany, i am 15 years and im am very depressed for many reason and one i cant say. Im and going trough meany personal and family problems. I am litrary never happy. I may seem it but really im not. Yes i have had many moments where i wanted to run away, commit suicide, and just leave. I thank you all for listening

39 | Left by tiffany | Oct. 25, 2010 at 8:59pm

Enough of the drama,
Enough of the lies.
Enough of the fear that hides in her eyes.
She wants to be happy,
She wants to be loved.
She wants to be freed like a little dove.
Sometimes she doesn't sleep,
Sometimes she goes crazy.
Sometimes she does things, that make life a little hazy.
But she knows why she's here,
There has to be something..
No way there's no joy,
At the end of my suffering..

Twloha, you are my joy

40 | Left by Amy | Oct. 25, 2010 at 9:24pm

On Falling


Wind and rain the storms of pain
Shadow and doubt where loneliness reigns
Lack of faith makes an ugly stain

I in the grip of hells despair
Had lost my way about my life I did not care
I had squandered love of the one most fair

And on the lofty perch I clung
In a retched plan to reach that one
For pities sake threatened my time be done

I cried out to Heaven please God help
No longer able to play the hand I dealt
In answer He gently pushed the ground I never felt

Five weeks past before I woke
Unable to move in the physicians yoke
Helpless as a new born with needles they me did poke

God helps those who can't help themselves
To some he whispers to others he yells
Put pen to paper he now me compels

To compose into these simple rhymes
The ecstasy and agony of my life and times
A cathartic confession I own my crimes

He made me an example to those that stray
Sometimes we have a heavy price to pay
But He showed He answers those that pray

I gladly bow and give Him my all
Thankful for the blessing of my tragic fall
Trying to live up to an example the bar set so tall

I know I have such a long way to go
And that the journey will be tediously slow
But at peace knowing He loves His children here below

© 2003 E.A. Holcombe

41 | Left by Andy | Oct. 25, 2010 at 9:26pm

Hi, I'm kind of new to this site and not really sure what to do..I've been cutting myself for 4 years now. Not everyday, not every week, sometimes not even every month. But it happens. With a razor, scissors, knife, really anything that's available when I "lose myself." I told my best friend after about a year and a half and she ended up telling my parents. I've gone to counseling but it was kind of a joke. Now I'm at college and everything is different. No one to stop me. No one to talk to. No one that knows. The other day I found out...from my mom... that my boyfriend of 3 years had cheated on. My mom had known for 2 months before she slipped out the secret on the phone. Between the sadness of what he had done, and hurt I felt that she couldn't tell me, I lost it. When I cut I feel like I'm not myself anymore. I become a completely different person. On the outside I'm a happy fun girl whose Class President, on the Dance Team, involved in the Best Buddies Program, no one would ever know. But on the inside...when all the layers are pealed back. I'm this girl that I'm fighting to not be. This girl that no one knows and would ever want to know.

-Lauren

42 | Left by Lauren | Oct. 25, 2010 at 10:31pm

Lauren,

As someone who is also in college, also on-and-off cutting for many years, and who also went to counseling once but it was kind of a joke (I was 15 and my parents made me), I understand what you're going through in probably more ways than I can articulate. But just know that the girl on the inside, with all the layers pealed back, is beautiful and loved, even if sometimes it doesn't feel that way. Stick in there- I'm rooting for you, and myself as well.

43 | Left by sarah | Oct. 25, 2010 at 11:10pm

I'm kinda new to this site.. Well here it goes. I'm 14 and I don't really cut, but I use to in 7th grade. I have couseling for court to go to, a physco father, and I lost my bestfriend. Everybody always looks at me and describes me as the "funny, hyper girl". When deep down inside, I'm the complete opposite. I want to just burst up into tears every second, but I don't want to tell anyone why. My bestfriend has seen me cry, and heard how I feel. I am happy that there is people out there in my situation so I know I'm not alone. I just wish that someone could let me just sit there and pour my heart out to them and not have them judge me. I just started freshman year not to long ago, and I'm trying to make the best of it. It's hard though when things at home aren't going good. Soon, my mom is geting custody of me and I'm glad of that because she understands me. I want to thank you guys for showing me that I shouldn't give up and that there is hope. Thank you TWLOHA .
- Kenzie

44 | Left by Kenzie | Oct. 25, 2010 at 11:36pm

Honestly, when I lost my dad, I lost everything. There I was, 16 years old, about to start my senior year and I'd lost the most important person in my life next to my mom. I went back to my old habits of smoking more, drinking more and self-injuring. It was the worst time in my life so far and I needed help. Through TWLOHA, I found the help I needed for it. So, thank you guys for everything. : ) I appreciate everything so much and I would be dead without you.

45 | Left by Jessica | Oct. 26, 2010 at 12:04pm

Let me know if you're listening.
- Blogspot: My Real Truth To Tell

46 | Left by Anonymous | Oct. 26, 2010 at 2:35pm

myrealtruthtotell.blogspot.com

Please tell me if you're listening.

47 | Left by Anonymous | Oct. 26, 2010 at 2:36pm

last year, my mom got sent to jail for something extremely stupid. I was forced to leave my good friends, and the small town i knew and loved, to move in with my dad who lived in Grand Rapids. i was depressed, and the only thing I wanted was to die. I couldnt imagin living without my bestfriend, who i have known since 1st grade. I cut myself, and drank whenever possible to try to get rid of the pain i was feeling. I couldnt even come close to explain how i felt to my dad. Once my mom got out, i jumped on the oppurtunity to move back in with her, unfortuently, she decided to move to Grand Rapids instead of moving my sister and I back to our friends. shortly after my mom got out, my step mom started to make my life a living hell, and i got kicked out of my dads house before my mom even found a house! Because of TWLOHA, i started my freshman year of highschool, stopped cutting and drinking, and took ahold on my life. Now, my mom and I are happier then ever.
THANKS SOOO MUCH TWLOHA!

love-always.

Madi.

48 | Left by Madi! | Oct. 26, 2010 at 3:21pm

TWLOHA saved my life. Twice. I still cut but I'm thankful everyday for a THIRD chance at life.

49 | Left by Katelyn | Oct. 26, 2010 at 6:45pm

Im 14 years old, been cutting for only a few months. I'll get off from the razor for a bit but, well, you know how, if you do something and you finally feel like you've done it well, how you start to feel better, like you're on top of the world? Then you find out you never did as good as you thought. Well having low selfesteem, it hits you harder than anyone else and you feel like you've failed completely. Its my life everyday, abusive family life, but then I saw a girl with a TWLOHA shirt, asked her what it was. "Look it up." Was all she said, and for a bit thats all I didn't do. Then, I did, and I wrote you guys, saying how everything was getting better and it'll all just be fine? I tell that to myself every day but even at that, it doesnt seem like its enough. Like I'm enough. Im the girl who acts all fine and dandy at school, the one who acts out her whole life, even the so called "friends." The supposed "friends" who make fun of TWLOHA, because they say its a "suicide hotline" or "emo" or even "depressing." Yes, it can be all those things, doesnt specify them being true. I keep wearing the bracelet, only taking it off for showers, wearing the shirts that I have proudly. Im not giving up, but I dont know how much longer I can hold on for.
Love is the movement

50 | Left by Sammy | Oct. 26, 2010 at 6:52pm

i took the survey. (:

TWLOHA helped me find the path to recovery, i'm no longer suicidal. still struggling with self-injury, but i'm slowly recovering.
thanks so much for all the help and support you guys do

51 | Left by Ashley | Oct. 26, 2010 at 9:13pm

bad thing have been done to me and my sisters. they remember but i dont .i see what i dont know are dream or memories. even then they are fragments. its taken a toll on us. i choose not to remember im scared to know. due to how seperated i became to protect myself at 8 i tired to end my life to see if i cared. we have had a hard life. ten years of torment life happened hard on us. but we choose to live and be stong and stand up for our selves. cant say we are not jaded to life but we thank god for each other and every day we get. worst thing is we had a great mother the best i have no doubt in my mind she loves me. but she could not be there every sencond. she worked to take care of three girls to get a away from there drug dealer of a father. she loves me and i see that. i dont let the bad people in my life ruin my world anymore. People please teach your children to speak up!!! Dont be afraid to what you might hear. be brave for your kids. FYI our main abuser was a uncle. but i love life and i choose to take my power back he does not own us!! we are no longer scared of him and he knows it. he fears us because we are stronger, have a voice and no longer little girls. he is twice my size but trust me i know he fears us. beacuse he knows we in the end did not break. hang in there. i didnt let depression end me dont let it end you

52 | Left by unknown | Oct. 27, 2010 at 1:05am

took the survey, felt great to help out a good cause.
TWLOHA has helped my friends, and me through our problems.
ive been inspired to reach out and help people who need it.
c:

53 | Left by Riley | Oct. 27, 2010 at 10:52am

I have recently discovered TWLOHA, and I wish I had discovered it sooner. I have suffered from depression for many years, and I started cutting at 14. I now have several hundred scars on my arms, legs and elsewhere.

I met someone when I was seventeen who finally convinced me to stop cutting. I had a few slip ups, but soon, it will be a year that I haven't cut at all. I am 19. It was a long road, but I finally feel as if I have conquered it. Although things ultimately didn't work out with the person who convinced me to stop, I recently got a tattoo that reads "love is enough" on my arm above the scars. It reminds me every day that when therapy, drugs, alcohol, and medications aren't enough, love can be.

54 | Left by sunshine | Oct. 27, 2010 at 12:37pm

To Fix Her Heart,
this is a poem for those who wear a fake smile like mine.

A normal day
A normal life
feeling lost
out of sight
feel the weight
a normal pain
almost irrelevant
to going insane

but there is a light
not a fake
not a smile on a blank slate
this is no tease
or another hurt
this is us
this is her

change her life
make her her
give her hope
amongst this world
she may be hurt
but all it takes
is to give her love
an actual safe place

your love will fix her
make her real
change this girl
let her heal
no more hurt
only love

see this girl?
she is love.

55 | Left by Jessa | Oct. 27, 2010 at 1:40pm

I just took the survey! (: Thanks TWLOHA for letting people know there is hope!

56 | Left by ashley monique | Oct. 27, 2010 at 1:47pm

Took the survey :]
Thank you TWLOHA so much. I am 13 and have been thinking about suicide for 4 years now. I come from an abusive home and was left by my mother at a young age.
TWLOHA has helped me feel better about myself and has helped me stop cutting and burning. I know I am not alone and I can get through this and lead the life I deserve. Thank you again for the hope and help :]

57 | Left by Epiphany | Oct. 27, 2010 at 4:02pm

Korynne,
I read your story. I'm sorry you have no one to talk to. I'll listen anytime I can. If I ever talk to much just tell me to be quiet. I'd love to help you. I've gone through emotional stress, depression, and self abuse. I understand your problems. I care.
Feel free to blog me whenever, if your comfortable with it.
-Lexus

58 | Left by Lexus | Oct. 28, 2010 at 2:28pm

To Write Love on Her Arms changed my life dramatically. I started cutting myself when I was 12 and just recently stopped myself, though I always feel like I'm going to relapse. Suicide was always on my mind, and the time when my depression got to its worse when I was 14, I almost took my own life, but I stopped myself from sliding that knife across my wrist. I've known about TWLOHA for a year now (I'm 15 now), and I feel a lot better now that I know I'm not alone, I'm not the only one who suffers from depressing and cutting issues. With that support set into my mind (and with the help of my best friend), I've been able to wing myself off of cutting. I still get really down such as I had when I was cutting, but now I am able to look at life in a different prospective. I am so happy that the Jamie, the founder, has started something like this. Without TWLOHA, I would still feel alone, and I don't really know where I would be right now, which scares me to tears.
Thank you so much, To Write Love on Her Arms!!

Love,
Ashley

59 | Left by Ashley | Oct. 29, 2010 at 5:38am

my parents never listen my dad even tunes me out. ive cut my self for about four years and my parents never listened would only yell at me i need help. not anymore hurt..

60 | Left by Brittany | Oct. 29, 2010 at 12:02pm

As a kid I was abused. Now I am 18 and I hate the fact that what happened to me then affects me now. I try to ignore memories and move on, but they continue creeping back into my thoughts

I have cut, abused prescription meds, drank, and done so many stupid things I regret.

I am finally realising that I am not alone and others know what I am going through. I don't have to be afraid to get help because I need it.

I finally want to change and deal with my past and move on to a happier future.

61 | Left by aly | Oct. 29, 2010 at 5:24pm

Rescue is Possible:

She sees people stare
Their eyes burn into her skull
She fears they see all of her pain
But then again why would it matter
Every day gets harder and harder
The cuts only get deeper
But the stare she gets is different now
It seems to want to help
So she reaches out her hand
And begs for a change
She discovers rescue and healing
Love and acceptance
Finally Rescue is possible
And love is moving us all


I started cutting several years ago. I am happy to say that I have gone 1 month 2 weeks and 3 days without injuring myself. It's a daily struggle, but I believe its possible. TWLOHA was a big thing for me when I tried to stop the first time, granted I've had a lot of relapses, but you guys really halp. Thank you for being here. Thank you for caring.

62 | Left by Jess | Oct. 30, 2010 at 2:01pm

Lastnight I told my friend that I get depressed. It was so hard to come out an I've never actually told anyone about it before. Thinking she would understand and talk through it with me, she started screaming at me making it worse and saying I need help because I'm only 14. I know she cares but she made it a lot worse. She hung up on me and just kept telling me I needed help. I now know I shouldn't have even said anything. She isn't going to look at me the same, and she didn't take it into her own hands well at all, because she just kept screamig it and her little brother was home. My biggest fear was telling someone, and now I know why and I completely regret it. I broke open my razor lastnight and cut my side multiple times. I regret telling. But I was proud of cutting.

63 | Left by Jill | Oct. 31, 2010 at 8:36am

I am a year and one month clean of cutting.
thank you TWLOHA

64 | Left by Lauren | Nov. 1, 2010 at 7:38pm

My name is Lauren and I dealt with cutting overall for about three years. It was a long, painful addiction and a long road to recovery and healing. TWLOHA was my inspiration and God was and is my Savior. I want you guys to know that what TWLOHA states is truth and it's real. We are loved more than we'll ever know and there is a God that is fighting for our hearts, a God who is crazy in love with us. Healing is possible< 3
I am over a year clean of cutting now, and I want to do whatever I can to help other people. If anyone ever wants to talk, or needs someone to share their story with, you can email me.

marengogurl_13@yahoo.com

Much, much love.

65 | Left by Lauren | Nov. 1, 2010 at 7:49pm

heyy my name is dakota maria i used to cut because i was so depressed and i thought it was the only way to make things better cuz no one cared, and ya i think about cutting sometimes but last year i promised one of my best friends whos name is ben that i wouldnt cut or try to hurt myself ever again because he told me that he cared about me and he would miss me alot if anything happened to me!!! I also have other friends that cut and we tlk bout it and TWLOHA helps us and we write love on our arms!!!!

66 | Left by Dakota Maria | Nov. 2, 2010 at 2:39pm

Okay i took the survey thank you guys for all that you do. TWLOHA has been a huge help in so many ways.

67 | Left by Emz | Nov. 2, 2010 at 2:47pm

Hi, my names Jessica and I'm 16. About two years ago I started cutting. I was dealing with a lot of emotional abuse in my house. I felt like I was never good enough, and i would hear that was worthless too often. After finding TWLOHA I've found hope. Through the help of my friends, and this community, now i am on the way to recovering from self-harm. I just wanna say, thank you. This is the first time I'm saying this publicly. I don't regret that I did it, because its made me a better person. Yes, there are some days where I think about doing it but i resist because of TWLOHA. I usually get depressed easily but im on the road of recovery. Thank you ( :

68 | Left by Jessica | Nov. 2, 2010 at 4:41pm

TWLOHA stands for such a beautiful thing. everyone has to remember that you're not alone in anything you do in life

it truly saddens me about all the suicides that have been happening. i feel like i could have prevented them by just having a simple conversation with those individuals, it's in my head each and every day.

please if anyone needs to talk, contact me on facebook facebook.com/wildchildjess
i'm here, ready to listen to your story, please.

69 | Left by jess | Nov. 3, 2010 at 11:09am

^^^^
you can also e-mail me
jesscuhface@yahoo.com
i'm here to help:)

70 | Left by jess | Nov. 3, 2010 at 11:15am

I didn't realize there were people just like me. I knew they were out there. But there is so much strength in this. I am TWLOHA biggest supporter. I just got a tattoo two days ago that says "to write love on her arms" in the shape of a heart. I am going to be 20 in less than two weeks and i have cut my wrists and leg since i was 14. This gave me hope. You saved me. Thank you. I am forever greatful. I owe you my life. CONGRATS!!!!!!!!!!!!! please keep this going on !!!

71 | Left by Elissa | Nov. 3, 2010 at 5:05pm

Dear TWLOHA,
I am 14 years old and have been through a lot. When I was in 3rd grade my mom and I would fight every day about stupid stuff that was pointless. I would often get very angry with myself and punch myself in the head and pull at my hair. I never thought about it until a friend saw me doing it and looked at me weirdly. That's when I knew I wasn't normal. In 4th grade I became extremely suicidal (my mom and I were still fighting) and even had a knife to my heart at one point. I hated myself because I thought my mom's life was bad because of me, and that everything would be better if I was just gone. Eventually, I got diagnosed with depression (no one knew I was suicidal until a year later) and things were going well again. My mom and I didn't fight as much. In 7th grade my depression started getting worse again, and I cut for the first time (it wasn't deep, just with a safety pin and I didn't even think about what I was doing. I also erased my skin with a mechanical pencil eraser to make a burn mark). My mom read a page of my journal I accidently left out and brought me back to my phsycologist. My meds were upped. In 8th grade things went completely downhill. My best friend became suicidal and I took it upon myself to save her. I neglected everything that had to do with me and focused completely on my friend. Meanwhile, my brother and my reationship ended and I didn't talk to him for 2 1/2 months. I stopped eating, because I didn't believe I deserved it. This whole time I hated myself and was hurting myself. My best friend was cutting too and eventually ended up in suicide watch. While she was there I was ultimately alone because I had isolated myself from all my other friends. When she returned we got in a huge fight and I was alone. I eventually began getting better, once my parents found out what was going on and had my meds up. Now I am a freshman in high school and things are starting to look up for the most part. I now have been diagnosed with anxiety as well as depression. Sometimes I still want to cut, by I have a TWLOHA necklace/dogtag that I hold whenever I want to. It has almost been 6 months since I last hurt myself. Thank you TWLOHA! You have helped me so much! (I LOVE your book by Renee Yohe Purpose For The Pain).

72 | Left by Morgan | Nov. 4, 2010 at 6:53pm

Finished this survey, glad I did.
Thanks TWLOHA for everything you've done for me. You've opened my eyes wide and taught me how truly greatful my life actually is.

73 | Left by Chanting | Nov. 5, 2010 at 9:46am

This is a good thing ! his really helped me with difficult problems tat i thought would never be solved . Thanks for your help! ♥

74 | Left by Lily | Nov. 5, 2010 at 6:43pm

Im 15 years old and I was cutting and drinking since I was 11. Finally I broke down and drank a bottle of wine and called 911 . Ive been in the hospital twice and when i got out I received a lot of mail from twloha and every letter made me smile. Someone named lucy had sent me a notebook which got me started in writing which had helped me a lot. I never thought i could feel better from depression but it is possible. Im just amazed how much better i feel and i want to help others find that amazing feeling.

75 | Left by Rachel | Nov. 6, 2010 at 6:21am

Thank you TWLOHA for all you do. Took the survey, everyone should do so :) Your movement not only changed me to the better person who I am today, but it saved me.

76 | Left by Krystle | Nov. 6, 2010 at 9:49pm

TWLOHA has been my inspiration to live, to not give up. I have been a little suicidal kid for 5 years, I'm 15 almost 16 at the moment. I remember the day my closest friends sat me down and made me read the entire story and video, i was in tears. it made me re-think life and how i should live it. I have been clean from all drugs/alcohol/cutting...etc for a month, so i keep on track, and hope to make a good recovery. thank you TWLOHA (=

77 | Left by Kenzi | Nov. 7, 2010 at 4:11pm

hi ive noticed alot of the comments and read so many of them and I wish I could help so many of you. ive also noticed there are hardly any guys on here it could be the name of the site or there to ashamed to admit they have self harmed etc im not sure but I support TWLOHA because ive been suffering from depression for 5 years now and self harmed on many occasions and it still happens to this day, I know when your feeling that depressed and that low youve turned to self harming you need to remember your not alone, there are other out there who know exactly what your going through who will give you any support or help they can! Just remember your not alone there is always someone there for you to help you!

Paul

78 | Left by Paul | Nov. 8, 2010 at 9:44am

Please take this survey about self-injury and parent relationships/stress-tolerance!

Thank you very much

79 | Left by Holly | Nov. 8, 2010 at 10:49am

Hi, I'm 14 years old, iv'e been cutting since after my Grandfather dies when i was 11. Thats when life started getting difficult. my parents fought constantly. I was bullied through out school (grade school through middle school) But no body relized how much pain i was in because i put on a smile evryday, hid, cuts with bracelts and/ or long sleeves, and prtended to be happy, and perfect a grade student. totally invloved. a girlscout, lead rolls in all the school plays, got citizen ship awards. won writing competitions. and in all of this, at home and in class, was miserable. Im not the skinniest girl out there, but im not fat, even though mean girls told told me so. im in a relativly healthy weight range now, because of diet and exercise (which by the way, do help some with attention problems, and moodliness) i'm pretty new to T.W.L.O.H.A, but so far, it has helped a lot. my mom discovered that i was cutting about a month ago, and flipped out. now her and i go to a councler once every two weeks. I hav been diagnosed with ADD and still being screened for depression/ bi polar/ anxiety. I have opened veins before, bled til i passed out on the bathroom floor, and have discuting scars on my legs arms and shoulders. After highschool started, i remet my preschool sweet heart, and we eventually ended up being a couple. we are still together and very happy and comfortable with eachother. He figured out that i cut when we were practiceing choriography for show chior and my sleeve slipped down some to reviel the evidence. and since i Met him, i have cut less and less. i Went one month and three days with out cutting, then relapsed last night. ugh!Sometimes, its like when i cut, its a whole different person. and now, anything sharp and metal, draws my attention, and the tempation is difficult to resist. the counclier doesnt know i cut, because they would have to report it and possibly send me to a mental hospital or something (at least thats what mom says) but counciling still helps. my mom is finnally listening a bit better to how i feel, and we communicate a little better now. my father, we just ignore, so thats whatever. Any way, T.W.L.O.H.A has helped emensly. now, i know im not a lone, and that there are better ways to excert stress, frustration and saddness. ive been writeing music, songs, and poems since the 5th grade, and also draw/ paint. it has been very helpfull in recovery. And my loveing boyfriend has been helpful too. He doesnt judge me on my past, nor when I cut. He simply, takes me in his arms, and holds me close and reminds me how much he loves me. ive came real close to killing my self before, but something always held me back. and Now im going through comfirmation through church, and im learning so much hope and faith, and the youth group leader says that i seems much happier this year, (guess i didnt always do too well of a job hideing the pain) so, now instead of say to my boyfriend "i would die for you" i say, "i will live for you" and there is new found hope through God. So thank you T.W.L.O.H.A.for being out there. And even just takeing the survey, and actually confessing stuff, even enonomously, it feels good, and Any one with a story to tell, take the survey. And my message to all out there with stories like mine: Hang in there! no matter how horrible life may seem. because God has a Plan for all of us, and all of you are loved so deeply by God, and when you cry, God is crying with you, When you cut, God feels your pain. So just hold on, work hard, and perservere. Because in the end, if you stay true to who you are, and work hard towards your dream, you are sure to get there some day.
Love always,
the Dreamer

80 | Left by Deamer | Nov. 8, 2010 at 7:54pm

i wrote this poem last year, thought it might help many of you out there. share it save it, but please give credit to the author. it is also on my blog. :)
"The Great Escape"

I wish that i could Fly away
go to a different place.
If i could
i would
escape the ones who told me they loved me
but lied...

they tell me one day
im the greatest thing in the world
the next
they come home wishing i was never born

i was a mistake
i wasnt planned
concieved on my parents honeymoon
in a beautiful mountainous land

maybe thats why my head is always in the clouds
most of the time
but can you blame me?
my escape is this rhyme!
i havnt anywhere else to turn
Even when i try my best, i always get put down
i always get burned.

a slit to the wrist
thats all it would take
in the morning my sleeping body they'll shake
but i won't wake
the facade they put on, its nothing but fake.
so tonight, ill decide, ill decide

and in my dream
i am dancing happily
in a pretty dress
someone holds me close
and he says he loves me
in my dreams all my wishes come true
all the fear disapears there are no more tears
in my dream

it doesnt take much to burn out a fire
something that applies to a life's desire
sweet dreams that will never come true
see what you caused?
what you caused me to do

ive been hurting inside for a long, long while
but you close your little eyes
your in denial

it wouldnt be much different
just better
i am already dead inside
i have lost my fire
lost my shine
like an old penny left out in the rain
if you pull the trigger you wont get your desired fame
maybe ebd up on CNN for a while
then your story dies...

all the while
you sweet dreams
they never came true
BULLIED TO DEATH!
want that to be you?
NO! you dont
because it will be okay
push aside the curtains and unlock the window pane
Slide the glass open
the sunshine kisses my skin
like broken wing
my healing shall begin...

I'll open minds
and open hearts
show them all
what they tore apart
one by one
i put the pieces back together
work until my heart is as light as a feather

Then one daywhen you'llhear a swish of wings
a whistper in the wind or feel a gentle touch
you'll know that your angel is watching over you
and that he loves you very much.

so for now just keep singing
and play your guitar too loud
pound on the piano keys
someday you'll make your family proud
and when your sad and mellancholly
and you feel all alone
your love can make you feel better
just pick up the phone
with them you can act silly
so now i can reach for my angels hand
knowng he will hold me

and for a while
the world will change shape
and my angel and i will hear a thousand melodies
as we make our great escape

81 | Left by Dreamer | Nov. 8, 2010 at 8:22pm

TWLOHA has totally changed my life in ways I can't explain. My best friend cut and I told her about TWLOHA. Well, lectured, really. Because I was scared she was going to hurt herself. She's only 11. I'm only 12. I was terrified. She's pretty much stopped now, but it took a long time. I've been a supporter of To Write Love On Her Arms since last year, and I hope to keep supporting for a long time. TWLOHA is a truly amazing organization. Thank you for everything. You've changed my life and saved countless others.

82 | Left by Danielle | Nov. 9, 2010 at 6:48pm

I am 19. I am a photographer. I am a broken soul trying to find peace within myself.

After years and years of verbal and physical abuse, I felt hopeless, worthless and alone. I felt as though i was the only one in the world who was going through these things. After finding out about To Write Love On Her Arms, I realized I a.) was not alone b.) had a support base I never knew I had through TWLOHA and c.) could work through this and better myself. There are times when you have to be selfish. This is one of those times. If you need help, everyone at TWLOHA is there to help. No matter what.

You don't have to do any of this alone. Don't be afraid to raise your voice and ask for help.

To everyone at TWLOHA, all of you are angels and every day, I am thankful for everything you all have done for me. I love all of you.

83 | Left by Jae Grey | Nov. 9, 2010 at 9:07pm

" I think that with one idea, one movement, we can save lives. " im doing a assignment for a journalism class, and i have chosen an editorial on suicide prevention. i have been inspired

84 | Left by Erika Wilcox | Nov. 10, 2010 at 8:55am

I'm 19. I have very few memories left ... I have blocked them out. I no longer remember what happiness feels like. But for as long as I can remember I have dealt with abuse. I have been cutting for years and things keep getting worse slowly working my way into drugs and allowing them to get a tighter grip on me. Sadly to be honest I'm not even sure I want to get better anymore I would be happier if I was able to die a slow death so that I may look back on my life and remember how I never helped anyone and if anything was only a burden...

85 | Left by Michael | Nov. 10, 2010 at 7:15pm

hi,
my name is kayla. recently i hav been getting really depressed and it all started a couple years ago when my father had gotten told that he has a heart problem that could kill him at any min. i am really close to my father and i cant lose him. and now that im in high school everything has been going downward..i have been getting into fights and just all around bad things. in school i feel like im a nothing. yeah i make people laugh but some times i feel like they lok at me and just thin who is she. i met this guy that i thought i could have been with for the rest of my life and it turns out after we met that he didnt like me for what i was and what i looked like. so after that i went to cutting i didnt know what to do with myself. i was getting sick of crying my self to sleep, i was getting tired of me not feeling like i was wanted, i got tired of not being good enough. one night i was in my room and i was thinking very hard about killing myself... and i almost went through with it unti my mom came in and stoped me. i still to this day am lost with no answers i have no cue what to do with my life. i still get picked on and i still have all those same feelings...i just dont know what to do.. i just want someone i can talk to that can understand me.:/

86 | Left by kayla | Nov. 11, 2010 at 2:10pm

October 2009 I learned a secret about my then 13 year old daughter, she was in pain and was not sharing it with anyone. Instead, she would cut herself and hope that that would help change things. She found out about TWLOHA and I strongly believe its helped save her. Thank you.

This is her singing about it and dedicating it to TWLOHA:
www.youtube.com/user/kdalie15#p/a/u/2/UAZcRpRNW74

87 | Left by Yara | Nov. 12, 2010 at 7:51am

One of my best friends is judged all the time, every day. And I love her to death. She adores this band, and so do I. Thank you. So much. This was my Facebook post this morning, after I listened to all your songs.
"She lives in a fairytale, somewhere too far for us to find. Forgotten the taste and smell of a world that she's left behind."
Not everyone is like YOU. So why is it your place to judge what you don't understand? Oh right, it isn't.
Remember now, when you notice someone is not as bland as you, that they are a person too.
Be who you are.
- Bri.

88 | Left by Anon | Nov. 12, 2010 at 8:29am

i started cutting in 8th grade when i felt worthless. my grandmother died and my moms alcoholism and addictions made her spend months at a time away from home. i didnt know where she was and when she promised to come see me and left me waiting i started to get really depressed. i couldnt take it anymore and one night i was restless and couldnt stop thinking about how i didnt mean anything to anyone and how much i hated her. that was the first night i started cutting. amazingly after i did it i slept so peacefully. my mom eventually saw the scars and made me promise to stop. i still resent her and we dont have a good relationship. but i did realize that my friends and my dad are everythingg to me. if they found out about me cutting or if i was hurt, they would care. for me & for them i stopped.
ive been cut free for almost two years now. & today i wrote love on my arms.

89 | Left by kayla | Nov. 12, 2010 at 1:03pm

I started cutting when i was but 5, after finding my grandmother, and best friend, dead three days before my fifth birthday, then watching her get buried on the horrible day... i secluded myself and hated being around people, (i was called a freak and it hurt....). the other kids would come up to me and ask about the wounds, i'd simply walk away. no one really tried to stop me and help, until high school. I stopped, when i was 13, for my friends, and have been cut free for two years.

90 | Left by Anastasia | Nov. 13, 2010 at 9:18am

My name is brandi. I'm 13 and I've been cutting since I was 11. When I started it was because I was pressures with my mentally abusive dad and my step mom who hates me and called me fat and ugly and worthless. My mom couldn't see because she was so busy working and trying to keep our family going. The. On top of that my self esteem was at a altime low while there was so much drama at my school. Then I met a girl. Her name was Brittany. The funny thing about me and brittanys story is we didn't know we both suffered from self injury. Through out the corse of the years our friendship grew stronger And I started to believe in myself. God gave me somebody who I could relate to somebody who stood by my side and she showed me twloha. I'm thankful everyday for finding her. We quit cutting for a good 6 months then I lost it. I cut my self more than before while my friends recovered I continued to slip away. I'm not a skinny chick but not huge either I've started starving and puking myself and I'm scared. But I know through it all I'll make it because I have the four things that keep menstrong when i wanna let go: god, Brittany, between the trees, and twloha. Thankyou for giving me hope and helping me believe I have a place in this world (:

91 | Left by Brandi | Nov. 13, 2010 at 6:37pm

I took this survey and I am glad that TWLOHA is around so that I can tell people about how great you people are. Also to all the people who posted comments; Emily, Brandi, Kayla, Paul, and everyone else, even though you may never see this comment, I want to say that I wish I could help but I am so glad you have found enough reason, and love to live and see tomorrow.
I am 18, I was never depressed, just confused and lonely, but I never gave up on love or anyone I knew. I hope you never do either and that no one gives up on you.

92 | Left by Logan | Nov. 13, 2010 at 11:13pm

I took the survey :)

TWLOHA has made an impact on my life in just a few days. Last weekend I got extremely depressed, and I cut. I havent cut in a few years, but I just wanted the pain again. The next day, my mother tags me in a photo on Facebook...it is her and her co-workers with "love..." on their forearms ... My mother had no idea that I cut, but the timing was amazing. One of her coworkers was told about TWLOHA and my mother started to talk about me and my past cutting and depression and suicide attempts, and everyone grabbed a sharpie and wrote "love..." on their arms. For me. I cried for like an hour. It helped so much. It really made me realize that I am not alone. I check this site all the time...I read all the different things and comments and such. Thank you TWLOHA :)

93 | Left by Elizabeth | Nov. 19, 2010 at 8:46am

I loved the suuvey i have realized how much i can really help people and how much they need it. My friend has had emotional issues for a long time and now he boyfriend and I are helping her not do anything. I love you Girl! thanks TWLOHA!

94 | Left by Kenzye | Nov. 25, 2010 at 6:25am

I was diagnoised with depression a couple months ago. I have been on meds since then. I haven't hurt myself by cutting but I have injured myself. I haven't told many of my friends because I don't know what they would think. I care way too much about what people think about me. I'm a chubby 15 year old girl who wears baggy things to hide everything; scars and my fat. I don't know what to do; I have thought about suicide but not totally seriously.

95 | Left by Bri | Dec. 13, 2010 at 11:10am

i was looking up your charity. i think it's great. i'm a part of project for awesome and even though it's about the children, ur charity really speaks to me. i'll be talking about you and another charity. :)

96 | Left by Nicolas Wolford | Dec. 17, 2010 at 7:59pm

I have not taken the survey, but I'd like to say: thank you TWLOHA

97 | Left by Bee | Feb. 6, 2011 at 6:48pm

TWALOHA has helped me a lot. Just to know that there are people in the world who care :) Thank you

98 | Left by Karma | May. 5, 2011 at 10:32am

okay my friend was cutting, and i told her that i love her to much for to be doing that.

99 | Left by jessica | Oct. 16, 2011 at 4:50pm

Hi, i just wanted to apologize for falling apart, causing harm to those who care about me, and to myself for letting the hardships hurt me. I'll be stronger and I'll recover.
TWLOHA,
jobeth

100 | Left by jobeth | Nov. 14, 2011 at 12:05pm