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This blog was originally an email sent to the TWLOHA staff. This past week was difficult. It seemed that we couldn't open our email without the news of another suicide, and we were all beginning to feel the weight of the reality of these tragedies. As a team, hearing these stories never gets easier. Like anyone, we can find ourselves feeling drained and wondering about our purpose as an organization. This blog comes from that difficult place, when I remembered why we exist.
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While our inboxes continue to accumulate links to articles about people around the country dying by suicide, I try to remember why we fight.
In the battle against suicide there are lives lost, and sometimes they aren’t recognized until the war is over. When the battle feels never-ending, we ask ourselves why we started fighting in the first place. We get in a pattern, and all we see are the number of brothers and sisters by our side growing fewer and fewer. We can lose hope and wonder, what's the point in going forward? Where is our encouragement? Are we actually doing anything to make this world a more hopeful place? What good are we doing? Why should I even bother getting out of my bed when I’ll get to the office and I’ll open my inbox to see another seven articles about lives lost the day before.
But I am reminded of this truth: We have reason.
"You saved my brother from taking his life."
"My daughter wouldn't still be here if it weren’t for you guys."
"My dad is gone, but I'm hopeful in being a part of something that doesn't leave another family in the place I was in. I'm glad you're here."
These are our letters from home. These are our reminders. This is our motivation to go on another day. This is the reason we started this fight in the first place. We are reminded that our words have purpose, and they can bring hope in a moment where all feels lost and broken. And we believe this for your words, too.
We do this for those who can't bring themselves to talk to a friend because they think they're the only one dealing with the weight in their chest and the things in their head. We are here to let them know they're not. And when we lose someone close to us, or only know a name and see a picture, we mourn them. We remember them and we celebrate their lives, but we don't stop our fight for them. For them, their family, their friends... We fight. We have to. We have no other option. This message of hope stirs something in people that points to something true, something bigger than us. This is why we continue to get out of our bed in the morning when we're faced with this much loss.
In something that is so much bigger than us, we have each other. I wouldn't want to be in this alone, and we should all fight with people by our side.
We’re thankful we get to spend these days with you. You are loved.Posted in General, Journal by Chris Youngblood
Comments (106)
"2/3 of those suffering from depression never seek treatment."You gave me the courage not to let my best friend be a part of a statistic.Thank you.
1 | Left by Anon | Oct. 1, 2010 at 12:00pm
Thank you, TWLOHA. I've seen the suicides in the news too, and I shed a tear for every one of them. My heart goes out to those families, and to you. Thank you for being there to offer hope to all of us. You are loved, too.
2 | Left by Lacey | Oct. 1, 2010 at 12:15pm
TWLOHA, Thank you so much for everything. I suffered from self injury for a while and I quit, but for the past year after I quit, it's been hard for me to keep it out of my mind. It's hard to get the thoughts to leave you alone. I thank you greatly for helping me believe more that i'm not the only person going through this and that I can achieve my goal to never hurt myself again. You have given me confidence. I appreciate everything that you have done for me and what you have/are going to do for others. You are very much an inspiration. Thank you again for all that you do.
3 | Left by Sarah | Oct. 1, 2010 at 12:33pm
You guys are life savers, You have shown me that im not alone.
Youve shown me that in my story there is always a new chapter to be written.. Thank you so much for showing to me that I am a strong person, I love helping others that used to be where i was, helping them pull through without you guys i probably wouldnt be able to do that, So thank you .
4 | Left by Jenna Hardiman | Oct. 1, 2010 at 12:34pm
thank you TWLOHA. you give me hope. you help me keep going everyday. so i can help you one day. i can help you spread hope. so i can be hope for others. thank you.
5 | Left by victoria | Oct. 1, 2010 at 12:34pm
Workers at TWLOHA opening the emails:
Please can you print off every thank you message you have ever got, then stick it on the wall?
Cover the walls with them, so you can't even see the paintwork any more.
This way, if another week like this week comes along where you doubt why you should keep going, all you need to do is look up (to the walls, not the heaven) and you can see the exact reason why you - we keep fighting no matter what.
It must be unbelievably heavy in your positing, but you guys are the last people in the world that deserve to be struck with doubt in what they are doing. Even for a second.
You have saved me in so many ways, and I am among millions the same who owe you a huge thank you.
6 | Left by Keren | Oct. 1, 2010 at 12:34pm
Thank you for the encouraging words. You are an inspiration to me to keep fighting for the lives of others. Even as I battle the war of depression raging against my own soul, I do not lose hope. Thank you for all you do and will continue to do to raise awareness, support and hope.
7 | Left by Amy | Oct. 1, 2010 at 1:12pm
Thank you TWLOHA for having reason. If you guys did not have reason, I know I certainly would not have found a reason to keep on fighting through the war and through the depression and self harm. If you didnt have reason, I wouldnt have read you words that remind me DAILY that I am important, I am loved, I am special and I am me! If you didnt have reason, I would not have noticed how important my story is, and how I am the only one who can tell it. I am once again battling self harm and I know that because you have reason, I will once again get through and once again be clean! Thank you!
8 | Left by Alex Smith | Oct. 1, 2010 at 1:22pm
Thank you TWLOHA for everything you've done. You've saved MY Life and my friend's life. NEVER EVER GIVE UP! God is using yall to save lives and touch the hurting. ♥
9 | Left by Lacey | Oct. 1, 2010 at 2:17pm
Before I found TWLOHA I didnt want to be alive. for years I cut, took as many pills as i could hoping i wouldnt wake up in the morning, and along the lines also got really heavily into drugs so i didnt have to feel anything. I havent done any self harm , drugs or anything in 3 years. Cutting is on my mind everyday and the thought never goes away. but what keeps it as just a thought and not something i act out anymore is that i know there are people who are out there that understand and that care. I know i'm not alone. And everyday is a fight, it is something i will carry with me forever but it no longer defines me. And I wouldn't be where I am today if I never found TWLOHA. You guys do more than you could possibly know, Thank you so much
10 | Left by Kassandra | Oct. 1, 2010 at 2:50pm
Last weekend I was reminded that I am not alone.
To the person who commented above me. (Kassandra:)
It's very inspiring that you have been "clean" for 3 years. That's amazing. I hit my 1 year mark last weekend, and 3 years seems just so inspiring. Thank you.
Peace,
-Jovie
11 | Left by Jovie | Oct. 1, 2010 at 3:15pm
sometimes its hard to keep going, especially surrounded by the news of death every day. some days i just want to give up. some days i feel lost. but some days a good. they dont come often and close together. but they are there. some days i just want to know i am loved. some days i know i am loved. some days, its just easy to forget that we are loved, but we must.
12 | Left by Korynne | Oct. 1, 2010 at 5:37pm
Dear TWLOHA;
My friends just told me to log onto your blog and read this... It did actually make me feel a little better. Knowing that there are people out there fighting for things that we all should believe, but many of us simply cant. I was seriously considering giving up tonight, and it's nice to know that maybe I'm not the only one who feels the way I do and I'm not the only one who wants to help. Thank you so much for giving me the gift of hope. Something that I haven't had in years. I have more hope then I ever had, and I hope you read this and know that you DO have a reason. And if the reason is nothing else, it's that your giving me the strength I need
Dear Everyone Who's Considering Giving Up;
Please, remember that people love you, friends, family, teachers, classmates, boyfriends/girlfriends... Me. Yes, I love you. I don't care who you are or what you look like, feel like, think, believe, or anything else. I. Love. You. Because you are beautiful. And don't let anyone else tell you otherwise. I may just be a stupid, young, unimportant girl. But I care. So much. So just keep pushing through. It may get hard, it may hurt. But in the long run. It'll all be okay in the end, and if it's not okay.. It's not the end.
-Kimi
13 | Left by Kimi | Oct. 1, 2010 at 5:42pm
There's not much I can say, nor need to say other than, Thank you. You saved my life, and countless others. You give us hope to go on.
14 | Left by Maddie | Oct. 1, 2010 at 6:01pm
I just happened to find this site today...and it was perfect timing. I have fought with depression for nearly 10 years along with the thoughts of suicide and trust me it is not an easy fight. To know that people like you are fighting for those who don't have the strength to fight for themselves is so inspiring and impowering. I know what suicide does to a family (my grandpa committed suicide 3 years before I was born...I will never know him)and I also know what it is like to have those thoughts consume you...you have given me the strength to stand up and say "I will NOT be a statistic and I will not let others believe they are alone." Thank you so much for what you do and for saving so many precious people.
15 | Left by Leah | Oct. 1, 2010 at 7:35pm
Thank you TWLOHA. youve made a huge impact on my life. today i am fighting a new battle. not with self-injury or depression, but with trying to get others to understand your message. its okay to talk about these issues. thank you for teaching me that. i will continue to stand up for this cause. p.s. i told a friend of mine about TWLOHA today...i think it made a difference for him.
16 | Left by Kristie | Oct. 1, 2010 at 8:56pm
Thank you TWLOHA. I've been cutting for 2 years now and it all started with a bunch of lousy friends. But I had one great friend who told me about you guys, and it has made a HUGE difference. I have been trying hard to stop cutting, but it gets tough when I see all my old friends again and knowing that they are the reason behind this awful addiction that I have. But then I come on here and read and re read your blogs that you put on here, and it helps. Thank you so much!
17 | Left by Kirsta | Oct. 1, 2010 at 8:58pm
thank you. thank you. thank you for now and ever. peace
18 | Left by gludz | Oct. 1, 2010 at 9:50pm
Dear To Write Love on Her Arms,
Everytime I see or wear my shirts, I remind myself that I made it. I'm still here. Thank you for being that reminder. For being that light of hope that sometimes is hard to find. It's been 3 years since that thought brought me down a dark place. Since then, I've tried to turn my life around in the most positive way I can. When I feel like I can't I remind myself that I matter to someone. This week has been quite a trip. My heart goes out to all those families and friends who lost a beloved because of bullying.
Maybe, if for one day, we could all just truly write "love" on or arms, we could help someone who is having trouble reaching out to someone who understands.
It does get better and there is hope. Love exists. I know it now.
Thank you for being there.
Jenny.
19 | Left by Jenny Arely | Oct. 2, 2010 at 1:02am
I thank you guys for all you do. I believe this organization is quite amazing and truly an inspiration to millions. LOVE IS THE MOVEMENT:)
20 | Left by liz | Oct. 2, 2010 at 1:43am
I live half way round the world but TWLOHA has reached out to me nonetheless. You've brought me hope & courage in ways u can't imagine.. Thank u now and always.
21 | Left by anna | Oct. 2, 2010 at 7:03am
'You can make it out, you will live to tell.'
Those are just a few of the lyrics to a favorite song of mine. It's called You're Not Alone, By Saosin. Whenever I hear that song, it reminds me of TWLOHA, and how many of us have been affected by it. Some have come from broken homes, others from great ones. We all look across the hallways, and see that one girl or boy. The one who always seems to have everything figured out. But what we don't know is how he/she struggles day to day. TWLOHA is more than just suicide prevention. TWLOHA is what keeps many of us here. Thanks to TWLOHA, I'm still here. Thanks to TWLOHA, my best friend is getting help at a rehab center. I live by one saying: 'We are all here for a reason'. We may not believe it, but we are. Stay strong.
22 | Left by Kaydee | Oct. 2, 2010 at 8:55am
If it weren't for you, I would have more scars than I could ever imagine. Thank you.
23 | Left by Anon | Oct. 2, 2010 at 9:55am
The first time I read TWLOHA's blog i couldn't believe the way you were able to put into words everything that was going on in my heart and in my head. YOU made me realize i am not lost and alone on my struggle with depression.
It's an every day battle but just knowing that there's a place where i can reach out for help whenever i feel i can't take it anymore makes a huge difference. saying thank you will never be enough... so even when there's awful weeks like this one when the battle gets discouraging know that there's tons of people out there who are here today and feel safe, loved and understood because you exist. you stood up for us and let us know that there is a light at the end of the tunnel and that there's always an open hand to help us through the rough patches. chin up!
24 | Left by claudia | Oct. 2, 2010 at 4:38pm
Thank you for all of your work. I know for a fact that you help people. Kids at my old high school, and at my college wear TWLOHA t-shirts and talk about how the organization helps so many. My best friend and I have both followed your cause and I may not have been here had it not been for the realization that there is hope and there are people like me.
Thanks to the TWLOHA team!
25 | Left by jenny | Oct. 2, 2010 at 6:02pm
Dear TWLOHA,
I could never thank you guys enough for what you have done for me and so many others. Almost a year ago, I got my heart broken, I hurt so much every day, and I got to the point where I just wanted to give up and end my own life. But when I found you guys, my life changed. You guys made me realize that there is always one thing left inside my heart, HOPE. I pushed on every day, no matter how weak I felt, because I knew that there was light at the end of the tunnel. Why? Because of you guys and everything that you do. Thanks to you guys, I have completely changed from the empty, broken, lost person that I used to be. Thanks to you guys, I held on. One year after heartbreak and depression, I am a completely different person. I have my best friend back, I'm in love, and I'm thankful for every little thing that comes my way.
And I want you guys to know that YOU are the reason for what I am today. I could NEVER thank you guys enough. What you guys do is just amazing. It really is. Never let the idea of doubting why you guys are still here helping us, pass your minds. You didn't let me give up, and I won't let you guys give up.
I love you, TWLOHA. God bless.
26 | Left by Alex | Oct. 2, 2010 at 10:44pm
Twloha, you are so beautiful.
The first blog I ever saw on here was you matter very much. It struck through my heart and captured my soul. I was in a very dark place, and had been for a very long time.
Things haven't cleared up, and there are tragedies and illnesses and sadness all around, but i hit rock bottom and now I am trying my hardest to come back up. And you, twloha, are my inspiration.
Suicide seemed like the only way out, and acting on that desperation repeatedly hurt so many people. Now i am beginning to see the value in life, and perhaps soon i will be able to feel it. thank yo8u twloha.
love,
me
27 | Left by No Name Please | Oct. 3, 2010 at 11:00am
Just wanted to say thank you for reaching out. I lost my son to suicide 4 years ago, and I know you have saved many mothers from the pain I suffer. Please keep on knowing that you do make a difference in lives. I saw CBS Sunday Morning and was so thankful to God to know you are out there. You are in my prayers, noone should have to suffer the loss of a loved one at their own hand, but we do.
28 | Left by Darla | Oct. 3, 2010 at 5:12pm
today i found out a girl i went to elementary school with died. In school when i was younger [im in high school now] she was always teased and made fun of, so she turned to drugs. last night her boyfriend broke up with her she again turned to drugs and overdosed. she died at the hospital not just killing her and her baby. maybe if she would have known about this maybe she could have been helped. you guys are amazing. keep up because you put hope into many people.
29 | Left by ScreamDanielle | Oct. 3, 2010 at 6:28pm
This blog, and the comments beneath it remind me of what true community is.
This is community. No number of miles seperate us because we are all together, all fighting for hope and for healing.
I hope this next week finds all of your inboxes filled with words of encouragement.
I hope that you know that you too are loved and cherished.
You're making a world of difference.
Thanks.
EA
30 | Left by Anon | Oct. 3, 2010 at 7:25pm
You've saved me. So many times. I haven't cut in two weeks. :)
I don't know what I would do if I didn't have TWLOHA.
Thank you.
31 | Left by Mary | Oct. 3, 2010 at 9:11pm
Thanks TWLOHA for everything. I almost committed suicide in 10th grade and I am thankful for you guys. You helped me along in the healing processes. LOVE YOU!!
32 | Left by Anon | Oct. 3, 2010 at 11:12pm
i feel as though i am a serious failure. i try to stay clean but i fall so very often and hard. i debate the option of suicide frequently. but everytime i begin to weigh the pros & cons, i, somehow, always find myself reviewing the twloha site. it then kicks me back to reality and helps me feel not so alone in this battle. i feel like this support is so very important, not just for me, but for others struggling with me. thank you.
33 | Left by davina | Oct. 4, 2010 at 12:14am
Thank you for posting the Statistics of Self-injury. After I read all of your Statistics I felt differently about what I was doing. I stopped cutting and I feel so much better... I mean like soo.. many other people I fall back into it.. but over-all I feel a lot better that I visited your website THANK YOU :)
34 | Left by Kayla | Oct. 4, 2010 at 8:08am
Thank you so much so offering such a website. You guys do not know how important you are to me. I just wanted to say I am sick and tired of trying to better myself but this website changes my mind. I cannot imagine hurting the people I love by commiting suicide...but I am hurting them with my words. It never gets easier, but you can only make the best of it. Thanks...bye
35 | Left by shianne | Oct. 4, 2010 at 9:19am
I used to cut myself, burn myself, starve myself, and have attempted suicide multiple times.
I don't anymore. I got out of that. I remembered that i have a reason for living.
To the people at TWLOHA... Thank you for reminding people like me that suicide isn't the answer. Not everyone does make it out. One of my friends committed suicide last week... I'm slowly realizing it's not my fault.
God is my strength, and my hope. Thank you for listening to peoples voices...
To anyone who is struggling, lift up your face. The sun is still shining, life is still worth living. Jesus is here and willing to hold you if you allow him too. Don't give up quite yet... And don't ever believe you don't matter. People love you, whether you see that or not. Don't put anyone else through what I'm going through with the loss of a friend to suicide. We really do care, it hurts when you give up.
Keep going. Jesus brought me out of my addictions and i'm nine months clean. He can do the same for you
36 | Left by Gracie | Oct. 4, 2010 at 9:45am
a few years ago i was in a dark place. i didn't see the point in anything, i didn't have the energy to move, and i was hurting and could hardly breathe. i used to cut myself and no one around me noticed anything. because of TWLOHA i have not cut myself for over 7 months and i am slowly starting to feel more like happier and more energetic. so a billion thank yous to everyone at TWLOHA. because of you i'm here and i know i'm not alone!
37 | Left by Mindy | Oct. 4, 2010 at 10:16am
Dear TWLOHA, you guys have made a huge impact on ALOT of peoples lives, including mine. My best friend showed me this site, and i ordered a hoodie last week... When i went to school today, i got alot of weird looks... Many people i knew asked me if i was suicidal, depressed, or alot of other things... My answer was, Thats all behind me. And it really is, thanks to you guys and my best friend. Thanks
38 | Left by Brandon | Oct. 4, 2010 at 3:32pm
there is a festival at where im from and there was this man there who made bracelets ; and i didn't know it at the time but i literly have love on my wrist right now becuse of it . thank you for helping people like me and the many people i know that have thoughts of suicide.
39 | Left by Anon | Oct. 4, 2010 at 5:50pm
ive known about your vision for about 2 years now. Renee's story is something i cant get enough of,ive even read her book. your vision of hope and that hope is real has an ever lasting affect on me. its opened my eyes to the world,and to god. Ive tried to contact many of your interns or just any number on here available. i want the oppurtunity to be apart of this organization. i desire to be a intern for TWLOHA. Your organization will always be in my heart. By what is said in Renee's story, shows how there is always something positive out there in the world. your website invisions everyone in the world to reach out to one another. to show others your not alone. I would deifnetly love for some represenatives of TWLOHA to come visit my schoool in coppell,texas US. We just had invisible children come and not everyone took it very serious. but here at COPPELL HIGH SCHOOL, we've had brothers, friends, sisters, teachers, die from commiting suicide. we have students try to committ suicide here at school. or students that try to hide thier pain through thier self injury. I wish for someone from this organiation to come to my highschoool and open our eyes to YOUR vision. please come visit. Teenagers here need to realize hope is real and that their is rescue.
40 | Left by MImi wahdat | Oct. 4, 2010 at 7:53pm
I just wanted to say thank you so much TWLOHA.I'm now an ex cutter thanks to a friend of mine showing me this website.Although it's only been two weeks,I have hope now,which I didn't have before.
41 | Left by anon | Oct. 4, 2010 at 8:08pm
I truly appreciate you so much for fighting so hard. I'm not sure how long I can last... I'm trying but its hard. Sometimes too hard. These words help me for now though. Thankyou.
42 | Left by Anon | Oct. 4, 2010 at 9:18pm
I've participated in writing Love on my arms year after year. Although I felt like a hypocrite since I used to cut and as I got older tried finding more ways to kill myself. I met a girl sophomore year of high school, she was very religious, she had bright blue vivid eyes and gave the best hugs. But best of all, she had wisdom beyond her years and showed me that people who barely know me, can care. I had found out I as losing the home I grew up, my dog, and it was all because of my useless dead beat father who abused me growing up. She got me to share this with her and made me realize I should share this, because a lot more people feel the way I do. I told her how there's days I wish I had the balls to kill myself. She came into class the next day with a book of bible versus's and although my faith is uncertain I listened, she spoke with such confidence and really in the end, she saved my life. 2 years later though, that girl in my class, Bailey, took her own life. I feel a sense of guilt because she saved me and I couldn't save her. TWLOHA to me is a way to reach out to others contemplating suicide like she did so many times before. I feel it is my purpose to save lives by making people aware and more open to talk about this like Bailey was with me. I love the tell the story of Bailey and anyone who knew her knows she was one of those people who cared more about others than herself. This Friday I am getting To Write Love On Her Arms tattooed on my left wrist. I want to because I want people to see it ask what it means, I want to be able to tell them the story I shared with you just now. I also want it on my left wrist since that's the wrist I cut so many times. To cover that up and any remaining scars I have makes me feel like I have that opportunity to start over and see how far I've come. It will always be there to remind me to never think so foolishly again. TWLOHA is an amazing organization that I currently want to get my college into. Keep on doing what your doing, because every year I notice more and more people are becoming aware.
43 | Left by kristin wolf | Oct. 4, 2010 at 10:33pm
I stoped self harming about 5 weeks ago and it's hard but people like you guys give me the strength to do it
Thank you
44 | Left by Sabrina | Oct. 5, 2010 at 6:36am
Well, about a year ago there was this kid.....he WAS in 9th grade.... all the kids made fun of him because he had a slight case of autism .. He used to get made fun of soo often that he would eat his lunch in the boys bathroom.... Me and my friend would wait outside the door and talk to him :) Two weeks later he transferred to another high school... Shortly after he killed himself... I felt like I didn't do enough.. But I know now that I did everything I could to tell him about God's loove :)
45 | Left by Kayla | Oct. 5, 2010 at 8:36am
wow, sorry submitted it three times i think. lol. computers confosle me.
46 | Left by mandy- | Oct. 5, 2010 at 10:05am
@ davina my love dont feel like a failer... it like my mother always say God may tighten the noose but he wont choke you. have faith i will pray for you and i will write love on my arm in your honor
47 | Left by daisy | Oct. 5, 2010 at 10:17am
Dear To Write Love on Her Arm,
I really respect what you are doing and i hope one day you can reach the whole world here in Belize we could use your help
48 | Left by daisy | Oct. 5, 2010 at 10:25am
Thank you TWLOHA. I know very well that you inspire everyone that knows about this. I think that it would be really awesome if you could come to Toronto, Canada. Canada needs you too. Also thanks for all of your help. :]
49 | Left by Kathleen | Oct. 5, 2010 at 12:20pm
thank you TWLOHA, you cannot imagine how much you have done for me. Its a day by day struggle, but you guys mean everything to me when i have nothing left.
so thank you
50 | Left by Anon | Oct. 5, 2010 at 6:40pm
I have stopped popping pills and cutting because of you.. It's my second day of NO addiction or cutting THANK YOU.. You saved my life :)
51 | Left by No Names | Oct. 6, 2010 at 8:31am
i am so glad you are here and do continue to get out of bed every morning. while you may not have saved my life, you have given me a safe place to come. a place to feel heard, and to be reminded that i matter. and that makes it feel like you saved my life.
52 | Left by Terrie | Oct. 6, 2010 at 3:23pm
Keep doing what you're doing. I speak for many and myself... that we wouldn't be speaking without you.
53 | Left by Kendra | Oct. 6, 2010 at 3:41pm
TWLOHA, you guys are so amazing in everything that you do. It is so hard for people now a days to love others and want to help. Instead, you all love people you've never met, and everyone you do meet. This is an absolutely amazing gift that so many don't have. In doing this, you have helped so many people want to live their life, and never ever give up.
Through your organization I realized that love was the thing that was missing in our world. Love is what keeps people going, Love helps ease the pain and wipe away our unwanted thoughts. Even when life is hard, just reading things posted on this website help me remember that it will always get better. Most importantly, it helps me remember that the hard things in life, are really the only ones worth doing.
I have friends who have dealt with self injury and struggled with thoughts of suicide. When I talk to them I think of your organization and try to help them the best I can in showing them love and trying to give them hope. Your organization is what helps me help my friends, and thank you so much for that. I hope one day I will be able to work for your organization and help people through love, just like all of you do now.
54 | Left by Theresa | Oct. 7, 2010 at 3:32pm
When I first got your email back, how you told me I was useful and beautiful it made my life thinking how you cared so much, and didn't even know me. I told you my story, my closest friends don't even know. I know some of my friends struggle too,I do my best to help them. I love you guys so much, your shirts are my favorite and I plan to turn my wardrobe into TWLOHA gear.
55 | Left by Baylee | Oct. 8, 2010 at 9:03pm
Whenever I open your blog, I leave in tears. Complete waterworks. I sobbed when I heard about all the recent suicides, but I cried even harder after reading this. I don't know any of you or anyone who leaves comments here on your blog, but I feel as though you are all my soulmates. It's as though I could just sit down and spill everything to you, and you wouldn't fake understanding or feed me cliches, because you would just get it. You are all truly wonderful people and you've kept me going for a long time. Thanks. =) You're miracle workers.
56 | Left by Anon | Oct. 8, 2010 at 11:41pm
you met me at warped tour; i was high. you helped my best friend find the courage to confront me about my problems; he got me into treatment. my boyfriend killed himself; i relapsed. you reminded me there's hope, and i stood up and tried again. you have helped me live to age 19 and be clean for the past 249 days.
i'm just one of many who's life has been saved, helped, and changed because of what you do.
thank you
57 | Left by Anon | Oct. 9, 2010 at 12:01am
this website is SO inspiring . my counselor turned me to this sight and ever since then i haven't been cutting . you showed me i don't need that in my life . thanks
58 | Left by christine | Oct. 9, 2010 at 7:26am
I watch CBS Sunday Morning each week and I was glad to see them do a special on this particular issue. In my county we have recently had 4 young people to commit suicide within the last 3 months. All of whom I went to school with or were in my class. It's hard to imagine someone leaving behind their children, their spouse, their parents and even their friends in this way. It is my hope that organizations such as this can make their way into the schools, non-profit organizations and churches around this country. I found this site to be very inspiring and can see why it has touched so many lives already. ~Stacy
59 | Left by Stacy | Oct. 9, 2010 at 8:50pm
TWLOHA
i can't thank you enough for what you have done for me.
Last year, i would cut myself every night for six months straight. I felt all hope was lost and that was the only thing left in my life. Then i heard about your website and it literally saved me. As a student leader, i organised a To Write Love On Her Arms Day at my school and i still remember the amazing feeling that filled me when i saw so many people supporting the idea that rescue is possible, LOVE truly is the movement, because from that day i vowed to change, and that life has purpose. Now, with every day that passes, i still have the reminder of LOVE all over my walls in my bedroom, and it is getting easier to fight those urges. I owe this to your cause and the amazing people who work there. On Friday, is my 18th birthday, and i am getting LOVE tattooed on my wrist because i figure that now, LOVE can be written every day.
So from the depths of my heart,
Thank You
60 | Left by Alex | Oct. 10, 2010 at 3:21am
Thank you guys so much for being there when nobody else is.
Thank you for giving hope and showing us, that there's always a way out. You've helped so many people already and I just wanted to let you know that you're doing the most wonderful thing :*
61 | Left by Nat | Oct. 11, 2010 at 6:51am
Dear whoever reads this,
You guys have given me so much hope when all hope was lost.
a friend of mine commited suicide and that killed me on the inside and out. I wasn't the same person I used to be after he left us. You have been there to show me that I will ALWAYS have someone there for me.
I have suffered from Depression for a while and i used to cut all the time... anywhere... and now that i have hope again i haven't cut since july and somedays it get so bad that i actually feel like theres no hope for me and that no one will be there or understand. I just want to say that im recovering and its all thanks to my renewd Hope, To write love on her arms and every single one of my friends.
You guys are all in my prayers and i want to help everyone one of you as much as i can, to listen, to just be someone there for you to talk to when everything feels gone.
62 | Left by Cassie | Oct. 12, 2010 at 10:30am
I just want to say, every time I come on this site or read something about TWLOHA I start crying. But it is definatly happy tears. I cry because its incredible to hear so many stories of hope, of resuce, of sheer human strength. Our news seems constantly dominted by stories of death and suicide and if, even just for one day, the news could report these stories of rescue, survival and of bravery, the message of hope, love, and the message of how strong we are and how important our stories are could reach so many people and I want to believe, would bring hope and love to so many people. These stories of recovery and hope that people share on this site are unfortunatly unheard and they have every right and I strongly belive that it is our stories that need to be shared more in the world. We need people to know that they are not alone and that they dont need to give up. We are living proof that rescue is possibile. We are the living proof and we are the stories that TWLOHA mission and beliefs are the most true and important. That TWLOHA message is the true one. Believe it. We are proof that rescue is possibile. That love REALLY is the movement.
63 | Left by Alex Smith | Oct. 12, 2010 at 2:33pm
I finally got help for my depression today. Thank you guys so much for what you do.
64 | Left by Anon | Oct. 12, 2010 at 2:42pm
Hey guys,
You guys have no idea how much you have helped me. I was going through so much stuff and ya'll listened and helped me. I know now that i'm not alone in this world. I have people who care now bc I opened up and got help and its all because of you guys!:) Thank you so much. EVERYONE: If you need to talk I would love to listen and help. I know what its like to not have anyone there. Just email me at haleysierrapugh@yahoo.com and I would def listen and talk and try my BEST to help.
Love to Everyone,
Haley
65 | Left by Haley | Oct. 14, 2010 at 8:22am
'to write love on her arms, we are trying to get this site thru to our school and every student..we has had 2 suicides in the past 3 weeks and something needs done about it...Benefit Concert for the Wheaton/Standeven family and To Write Love On Her Arms. Sat. October 23rd at 6:00 pm at the Cameron County Fairgrounds Emporium,Pa. Bands Performing: Almost Practical and On The Run. Come out help us support the family/charity and raise awareness. Please spread the word. Thank you.
66 | Left by elisha | Oct. 14, 2010 at 6:16pm
Just wanted to tell you that you all inspire me every day to stay alive no matter how bad my depression gets. You inspire me every day to make sure everyone around me is happy within themselves, even if I can't make myself happy. You inspire me every day to remember those I have lost due to suicide and addiction, and to walk every day with pride that I am living just for them.
Thank you for working as hard as you all do to inspire people like me. I am an avid supporter and always will be. I appreciate you all so much--your words bring hope out of the ashes and into the hearts of so many teens. Your successes are far greater than you can imagine!
67 | Left by Livia | Oct. 14, 2010 at 8:57pm
To Kassandra and Jovie: one year is amazing...but three is also amazing I stopped cutting January 4th of this year (2010) and I have been clean for nine months and eleven days. Both of you are such inspirations as well as all the others with even more time. Those of you with less time remind me of where I have been and make me want to show you what awaits at each 'mile marker' of 'cleanlyness' (if that makes sense). Either way thank you so much TWLOHA and just each of you know that that you can all make a difference and that you are always loved by at least one person...because I will always love you (all of you). Thank you again TWLOHA.
68 | Left by Sara | Oct. 15, 2010 at 3:57pm
Sometimes it feels as though you guys have more hope than anyone in the world. It brings me to tears out of frustration that you can be so hopeful and I cannot. It brings me to tears that you care so much about all the lonely people in the world. It makes me feel human that you al feel the weight of all this pain, and that i'm not alone in it. Thank you guys!
69 | Left by Lauren | Oct. 15, 2010 at 7:15pm
I have been struggling with depression, anxiety, cutting, and bulimia for for 8 years now. I was the victim of childhood abuse, and spent a year in an abusive relationship as an adult. Some days, I wake up and my heart is so heavy and full of hurt that it takes all of my strength not to injure myself or starve myself. Some days I wake up and spend my whole day in tears wondering if things will ever get any better.
But some days I wake up and look out my window at beautiful trees, at majestic mountains, and I think of all of the people that are helping me through this struggle, and I am filled with gratitude and hope. Some days I wake up and read the quotes TWLOHA leaves on facebook, or the blogs they post and I am reminded that I am never alone in this.
I think this organization is incredibly beautiful. You give hope to so many people. You make those of us who are hurting less ashamed of the thoughts we think and the actions we take. You help me to get up and continue breathing. Thank you for existing, for fighting the fight with us, and for being the light on our darkest days.
70 | Left by Lauren | Oct. 16, 2010 at 8:11am
just this morning i was thinking about ending everything. i felt like a huge weight was pushing on me, stopping my breath and causing an ache in my chest. i know this post may go unnoticed, but i still want to say thank you. thank chris youngblood and everyone at twloha for reminding me i am not alone. you have saved me more than once.
71 | Left by rachael | Oct. 17, 2010 at 3:02pm
Depression is not a word usually heard in my house. My whole family dances around the topic. Well, I'm here to say that I'm depressed, or a cutter, or just over emotional. I've thought of taking my life several times, but how can I talk to people who won't even say the word? But reading TWLOHA has helped me through. Even though things seem bad now, I know that they'll get better. TWLOHA you've saved my life. Somedays I will just wake up, and think why am I here? Why is my life even worth it? I know now how important it is. Yesterday I was thinking of taking my life. I had the bottle of pills ready in my hand when my little brother walked in. When I looked into his face I knew I had something to live for. How could I leave him to defend himself in this world? I couldn't and I can't. He needs me and so do all those people who love me. I know it will be hard but I hope and pray that I have the strength to move foward because I want to live for tomorrow.
72 | Left by melissa | Oct. 18, 2010 at 5:32pm
i wish my ex would have known about this. he killed himself last year on oct 17, 2009. he was everything to me and i was starting to cut my arms and feel like i should die and i was gonna until my best friends told me to look up twloha and i read other stories and realized i just need to talk to someone so i did. thank you for saving my life and i wish mikey could have known about this so he would sill be with me.
73 | Left by Brianna | Oct. 19, 2010 at 8:01am
I'm one of the many reasons.
74 | Left by Jo | Oct. 22, 2010 at 9:34am
I always feel like a failure.. my mom was pregnant with me at the age of 16 and my dad was no where to be found. I grew up fatherless.. cutting and popping pills was my resort... I ttried to kill myself multiple times... After my last attempt I lost all my friends and was guided by a cousin to this website ! It changed my life ! I want to thank you so much ! I still have no one and again I feel like I am alone in this world,but, because of this site I have made at least 1 friend in this world! THANK YOU! thank you for teaching me God's Love !
75 | Left by Cayla | Oct. 27, 2010 at 8:35am
Thank you for all you do. With the discouragements in life, always feeling like there is more and more that I am supposed to be doing. Feeling like it is never going to get easier. Am I really making a difference in this world or am I just another by-stander? This post encouraged me so much. What a great reminder that we are not alone; that every action that we do does in fact matter, and it does make a difference. So thank you not only for what you do, but what you say. We are not alone.
76 | Left by Gracey | Oct. 28, 2010 at 11:01am
I know that so many people make fun of self-injury, but I just want to let everyone know that you're not alone ! Self-injury is a sickness not a joke. If you struggle with it then you need to get some help. I've been there and it's hard so, just know that there is someone out there that loves you and does really care about you! I just want to thank you TWLOHA for being there for me when I was down ! And thank you for being there for everyone who visits your site,
God Bless you guys !
77 | Left by No Names... | Nov. 2, 2010 at 8:06am
This site is keeping me alive, keeping me from cutting. I need this, i need someone, i'm alone and scared-i wish i had someone to share my pain with, to not be alone
78 | Left by Erin | Nov. 8, 2010 at 7:58pm
I'm only 15 and TWLOHA has really helped me, when I was in 8th grade I started smoking weed, which lead me into doing more drugs. I would go to parties and get wasted and the next morning I wouldn't remember what happened. There was nobody there for me to tell me that what I was doing was wrong because my parents didn't know about it, a couple of my friends would tell me it wasn't right and they would stop talking to me which made it worse, so I started hanging out with all the stoners at my school, then I went to a party and did acid for the first time and speed, and I woke up in the ER. I realized it was wrong so I stopped, but then I felt like no one understood me so I went back... I wanted to talk to my parents about it but I didn't want to disappoint them, I didn't want to be a disgrace so I tried to commit suicide, my brother found me unconscious in the bathroom I over dosed on pills. I want to thank you for all you do because if it wasn't for you I would not be here, and listening to Renee's story made me realized that there is hope, she's right there is a lot of hope and you guys are just amazing for helping all those people that go through this. We're not alone! THANK YOU.
79 | Left by Anonymous | Nov. 13, 2010 at 5:44pm
I just found your website today and it is totally inspirational. I lost my younger brother to suicide in 2005. The pain is still there and I know it never will leave. I wish this website would have been around then. It was and is a great burden to carry. Life is still not what it used to be. With the holidays approaching...I don't know what I will do this year either once again. My family has turned into a ball of anger over these last five years, pitting against one another. I don't know what to do or where to go. Suicide has a domonio effect. I considered it myself. Your web site is not in vain. I came across this for a REASON. Bless your soul.
Brandi Howell
80 | Left by Brandi Howell | Nov. 22, 2010 at 5:44am
thank you TWLOHA. i wouldnt be here today if it werent for you. you showed me that im not alone, that i am loved, that i can go on through this rough stage of life and stay strong. i couldnt have asked for anything more than hope. and you gave it to me. long weeks of therapy and family "meetings" never helped. they made me feel worse. i felt like i was screaming in a room full of people and no one even looked up. the inspirational writings and programs on TWLOHA.com pushed me towards getting help. not because something was mentaly wrong with me, but because i wasnt alone and i just needed to talk to someone who had gone through the same thing as i had. i didnt want to talk to someone who would tell me 'things will be ok' or 'itll pass this is just a phase'. i needed love from the ones who would understand this pain. and you were the people who understood. thank you so much
81 | Left by Jess | Nov. 24, 2010 at 4:33pm
The first thing that popped into my head upon seeing the new t-shirt design, "We have reason" is "Tenemos razon". I don't know if anyone on your staff speaks Spanish, but to say "We are right" in Spanish you say "Tenemos razon" or literally translated "We have reason". I'm currently studying Spanish in Costa Rica and working for a youth organization here. Learning a new language is hard, working with teens is hard, working with teens in a new language is really hard.
Do you know how many teens I've worked with over the years in the States and here in Costa Rica with this youth organization have cut, have had suicidal thoughts and have attempted suicide? Just people I have known personally, I can't count them on two hands.
TIENE RAZON. You have reason. You are right. You are right in fighting this fight, in sharing the message of Hope with a hurting world, and continuing to bring Light to dark places. And you are being successful! In both the US and here in CR on TWLOHA day, our kids were writing LOVE on their arms, embracing a message of Hope in seemingly hopeless situations, and sharing it with their friends.
Thanks for your commitment to doing what is right when it doesn't feel right, when you feel defeated and discouraged! TIENE RAZON!
82 | Left by Ali | Nov. 28, 2010 at 8:23pm
Dear TWLOHA staff - Please know that what you do reaches so very far beyond the young people who are commenting on this blog. Approaching 50 though I am, my daughter introduced me to your work when she was trying to help friends in junior high with cutting and depression issues. I try to mention you whenever the opportunity rises with my own peers - your work is so very much needed, and you are so brave to take so much upon yourselves. Know that people of your own parents' age and above are upholding you in prayer...such an important ministry you do.
There is a prayer...attributed to Canon Farrar...
I am only one, but I am one;
I cannot do everything.
But I can do something.
What I can do, I ought to do,
And what I ought to do
By the grace of God, I will do.
Each of us is only one. We cannot do everything (much as we would like to). But if we continue to reach out, one at a time, we will be doing something.
Bless you all.
83 | Left by Greta | Nov. 28, 2010 at 9:03pm
I hope my daughter is looking at all these wonderful messages. she has been fighting the strong urges to cut and has attempted suicide at least once. Keep up the good work letting the young people know they are not alone.
84 | Left by STR | Nov. 29, 2010 at 4:04pm
i've been fresh-cut-free for 3months now. the reassurance of TWLOHA posters in my room are my life saver. i still have yet to throw out my blade buts its almost like a security blanket. i know my mom has found it but she hasnt said a word. i know she is just hoping ive found help in someone and that im better. in july i lost a bestfriend since kindergarden to suicide and ive never felt more upset about anything. having TWLOHA and Pick Up the Phone has helped me termendously. ive recently wanted to start cutting again but the thought of my friend and TWLOHA and the sight of my boyfriend noticing would make me even more upset and i would feel like i am letting down a cause.
you gave me hope. im here becasue of this orginization. i found hope...im alive.
85 | Left by kellyann | Nov. 29, 2010 at 4:35pm
i just started going on to this site and i found reene's story heartbreaking i know i'm not alone i know people are there for me and i've been seeing a counselor for about a year now but nothing helps anymore i've tried suicide twice and i cut alot but i hope through this site that i can be like the rest of the people on here and find the hope to keep on going
86 | Left by taylor | Dec. 11, 2010 at 8:58am
this organization, jamie, and just everything it stands for are one of the few things that still gives me hope. this is why im alive
87 | Left by allie | Dec. 13, 2010 at 5:22pm
I cut. I am also stereotyped as the emo girl at school. This community offers me hope to which I could not expect from any friends. I hope that one day, I'll be strong enough to quit.
88 | Left by She Bleeds | Dec. 20, 2010 at 6:13pm
TWLOHA,
I know you've probably heard tons of stories and lots of stories of hope. But I want you to know the impact you've made on my life. I'm slowly getting better, realizing that it's okay to keep living. More importantly, I bought a magazine of the Rolling Stone a year or so ago with an article about TWLOHA. I devoured it and re-read it on many long nights. My best friend was planning on taking her life. That day, I gave her the article to read, to understand. She came to me the next day crying, finally finding the minute piece of hope that stopped the knife. That same magazine has circulated among my friends, the friends I've met because of their suffering.. and it's saved lives. Thank you, not only for me, but my best friend and everyone else affected. Much love to you all
89 | Left by Amanda Kate | Dec. 25, 2010 at 5:07pm
My friend committed suicide in 2009. I really wish I would have known about this organization before hand because I think it would have helped him. I talked too him three days before it happened. I knew he was sad so I tried too help him. but it wasn't enough. I too was suffering from depression for quite some time, and still do sometimes, that's why I'm really thankful for this organization, and thankful too all of you spreading hope too those who are suffering, because it makes a real big difference.
90 | Left by Megan | Dec. 27, 2010 at 4:36pm
twloha saved my life. i cut for a year and three months. i contemplated suicide a few times. i put that knife in so deep i didn't know whether or not i would make it. i popped pain pills left and right and night quill to put me to sleep because of insomnia. my insomnia was caused by anxiety and stress. my friends helped me and i have a friend who also cut. but they couldn't help me like you guys did, this site is a sense of security. it let me know that I'm not alone and read stories of people who got past their addiction. every night i usually still wanna go back to that knife but i know my friends might leave me so i don't. i just wanna say thank you so much for saving my life. i found hope and true happiness.
91 | Left by Kelsey | Jan. 2, 2011 at 6:04pm
You're not alone...Therapy for children and teens and young adults...
check them out on-line
ACRS---NOT your parents therapists....
(must live in Pennsylvania, but if you don't -no worries they'll hook you up with someone who is in your state)
92 | Left by advanced-counseling | Jan. 5, 2011 at 8:38am
Thank you. Thank you. Oh my goodness, thank you so much.
I have scars on my arms from cutting. I have the memories of bruises that have now faded. And sometimes, I feel... like so many others here do...that I don't matter, and that this doesn't matter, and it hurts so strongly that the emotions are like an aching in my chest. And my body is just full of hopelessness. Then I want to cut again. I want to watch myself bleed. But I don't. Because I remember this website. Or I come read this blog, and all of the comments. I cry, but not from my own pain. But from the wonderful, beautiful words of hope and love that are here. I know that I am okay. I am going to continue to be okay. And all of you here with me, just help cement that in my mind. Thank you, again. Thank you for forever. Love. I care about all of you. I really, really do.
93 | Left by Alicia | Jan. 7, 2011 at 2:44pm
The TWLOHA organization is a blessing from God. You save lives everyday and let us know we are not alone. You give us meaning when we don't thing there is one to life. Life wouldn't be the same without it. I appreciate everyone in this organization everyday for letting me know there is hope.
94 | Left by Brooke B. | Jan. 11, 2011 at 7:13am
I know I was the last person to comment about a week ago. But I wanted to point how a incident that just happened was made better by TWLOHA. I'm sitting here in my typing class. A few minutes ago, I was told to change my song for Comp./Lit. because a couple of popular guys wanted to do it. They humiliated me in front of the entire class. The TWLOHA site was where I retreated to. I was able to bask in the glow of knowing I am not alone. And I never would of known where to go if it wasn't for you.
95 | Left by Brooke B. | Jan. 17, 2011 at 7:10am
96 | Left by Danielle. | Jan. 20, 2011 at 11:48am
I dont know any of you personally, but you have saved my life. Thank you so much, you have given me courage to tell my parents and get help. The day I confesed of self injury I looked at this websight and I saw the picture of the whole TWLOHA staff, I cryed and I cryed because I relized these are the people who saved my life.. these are the angles who saved many lifes... Thank you so much, words canot describe how thankful I am. You have saved me.
97 | Left by Ally | Feb. 1, 2011 at 5:58pm
this is a wonderful thing that you are doing i love this program it reminds people that they are loved
98 | Left by sydney | Mar. 1, 2011 at 10:10am
i love this it is so great and i think it is wonderful soooo...... love this :)))
99 | Left by sydney | Mar. 1, 2011 at 10:12am
this program has helped me because i used to think that nobody cared about me or anything and this also helped my sisters know that they are loved so thaqnkyou:)
100 | Left by sydney | Mar. 1, 2011 at 10:13am
You guys are amazing, and I thank you guys so much for letting me realize that there is hope. I can make it through.
A year and a half ago I started cutting. It started as a stress release, but I became addicted, and there were nights that I had no reason to do anything, I just wanted the high. So I did it. I have 57 existing scars, that are recognizable. I asked for help, and I've been in counseling for a little over 13 months.
With the help of you guys, I have been clean for 9 weeks. It's one of the hardest things I've had to do, but I know that I can make it through. Rescue is possible. There is hope.
I've always been told that "it'll all be okay in the end", and for a while this made me automatically want to make an end, but I held myself together and pushed through. Now, instead of telling people "it'll all be okay in the end", I tell them "if it's not okay, it's not the end."
You guys have helped me so much, and I can't thank you enough, but I will share my story. I will tell people that you guys helped me through, and I will continue to wear my shirt and bracelet with your name on it. There is nothing that makes me happier than when people ask me what my shirt or bracelet means, and I can tell them "they're the people that saved my life."
For those of you still struggling, keep hope. You will make it through. It'll all be okay in the end, and if it's not okay, it's not the end.
101 | Left by Alexis | Mar. 24, 2011 at 6:59am
Thank you so much you have helped me so much in this ridiculously difficult time when I thought I would relapse. TWLOHA has helped me immensely it lets me know when days when some of the bad thoughts just won't get out of my head and I'm not taken seriously by the people who should be able to help me, that somebody understands and gives a damn about people like me. Please remember that YOU are a wonderful creation and all involved are priceless and that i love you. Never stop.
102 | Left by C | Mar. 31, 2011 at 4:18pm
You guys saved my life and countiue to give me hope. My battle is not yet won and I am still fighting very very long and hard. But every day I look at my arms my scars and the word love writein across my wrist (becuz I am not old enough to have it tattooed yet) I remember that I am a survier of the battle agenst suicide!
103 | Left by Lauren | Jun. 30, 2011 at 12:04pm
Here's another story to add onto your, "Thank you's." You guys have been such an inspiration to me, and to the rest of this world.
104 | Left by Tayla | Oct. 15, 2011 at 12:45pm
You saved my life. I struggle with depression, suicide, and cutting. I'm getting help now. Thank you so much TWLOHA!
105 | Left by Briana | Oct. 23, 2011 at 8:32am
Just want to say what a great blog you got here!I've been around for quite a lot of time, but finally decided to show my appreciation of your work!
106 | Left by cycloastragenol | Nov. 15, 2011 at 1:17am
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