The higlight of 2008 for me was getting accepted into the Los Angeles County Science Fair! I loved it. Not alot of things were good this year. But i'm keeping strong.

In 2009 i'm hoping for a better chance at life, better opportunities, and for myself to make better choices and have faith in myself.

Thank you so much for ALL your help Jamie.
You saved alot of people's lives.
Including mine =)

1 | Left by Tarynball | Dec. 31, 2008 at 3:43pm

the highlight of my year when I got out of the hospital for the second time.

what I am hopeful for next year is to stop cutting

I hope I achieve my goal :)

2 | Left by gwen | Dec. 31, 2008 at 4:29pm

my highlight of 2008 was getting into my jazz band. I love to play bass.

what I am hopeful for in 2009 is to getting better, feel better, and stop cutting

I think I already achieved my goal :)

3 | Left by gwen (rephrase) | Dec. 31, 2008 at 4:31pm

My highlight of 2008 was getting through rehab

My hope for 2009 is to learn from my mistakes and to be happy with myself

4 | Left by Erin Hotchkiss | Dec. 31, 2008 at 4:52pm

My highlight of 2008 was that I began writing.

I hope to develop that passion, along with others, in 2009.

5 | Left by Katy | Dec. 31, 2008 at 5:33pm

My highlight of 2008 was finally making a turn for Jesus. Before then I was riding the fence. Now I wanna give Him my everything!!!
I know cutting is bad, and I haven't done it since. I've come very very close. I wanna make it all the way through 2009 without cutting again. I wanna make Jesus proud. I wanna finally try to live a life worth the horrible suffering He endured for ME.
I wanna show love to others. I wanna be a better friend.
I wanna keep up my writing, hopefully develop my skills a little more and use them to reach people.
I alse really really really wanna get inspired to write more songs. I did a long time ago but now the inspiration's gone. I wanna get better at piano and guitar.
I wanna figure out who I am. I've put on so many fake masks that I don't even know myself under them all anymore. Am I happy? Am I depressed? Am I an optimist? Am I a pessimist? Am I apathetic? I have worn them all. I want to find myself this year. :]
I also really want to share Christ with someone more than anything. I'm hecka scared. But I'll do it for Him. :) High school starts this year for me and I'm pretty afraid of the school I might be going to. But I wanna give God the steering wheel and let Him make me a light to the people there. Big aspirations for the recovering cutter, I know...
I still hope though.
Love to everyone and happy new year! :]

6 | Left by Paige | Dec. 31, 2008 at 6:31pm

My highlight of the year was that I quit cutting. :)
I hope that in 2009 I will restore my relationship with God and really trust Him with my life.
Happy New Year! <3

7 | Left by Rachel | Dec. 31, 2008 at 6:40pm

highlight of my year was handing over my blades to my boyfriend to get ride of.(which was just on christmas eve)

for 2009, i want to keep from cutting anymore..and help my friend stop 2.

8 | Left by Ashlyn | Dec. 31, 2008 at 8:24pm

The highlight of 2008 for me, personally, was love I found in this organazation and in God.
I had always thought that I was alive and loved; until I realized that I was SO alone. I grew up in a Christian home. I was always exposed to classic Christian values. But I never truly knew God. I never strove for that close relationship. But this year, after so much pain and so many struggles, I found God. And once I found God, pretty much everything fell into place. I wasn't wishing to have the blade in my hand and on my skin. Instead I was wishing to be reading my Bible and living it out.

My 2009 resolutions are:
To stay strong in God.
To help my close friend out of her troubles and into His light.
To continue staying sober of cutting.
And to introduce this company to anyone and everyone.

I love you all, and thank you so much.

9 | Left by Hannah | Dec. 31, 2008 at 10:30pm

my highlight was becoming friends again with a girl ive known since 5th grade after her cutting since the beginning of 7th grade and then i started not long after that, only we didnt tell each other. things were rough for us from november until julyish.

im hoping to make smarter decisions about what i do and how i react to things. thats my main problem and the reason i still cut.

thank you so much for starting this organization. it makes me feel better that other people other than my one friend know what im going through and understand.

10 | Left by Jamie | Dec. 31, 2008 at 11:29pm

the highlight of 2008 was meeting all you wonderful people, and giving up drugs, drinking, and trying to stop cutting here is to day 3. i had made it longer a while back ago then i gave up. then few days ago was my 17th day without cutting, but i had fallen back, so here is to day 3 fighting harder then ever

I LOVE YOU ALL.

ELLA

my tattoo coming soon.

11 | Left by Ella | Dec. 31, 2008 at 11:41pm

2008- finding real friends, finding God as mine, not my parents'

2009- i'm really hopeful for new relationships, and for making my 57 days w/o it even more.

12 | Left by brittany | Jan. 1, 2009 at 1:04am

2008 was the hardest year of my life so far. But the highlight was me finding God and community in that. <3
2009? Work to recovering from my eating disorder.

13 | Left by jenna | Jan. 1, 2009 at 8:20am

08 was a really tough year but my highlight would have to be getting help.

09 i'm hoping to be happy again and to see that i really am loved.

thank you for all you do.

14 | Left by Bailey | Jan. 1, 2009 at 10:13am

the highlights of 2008 were finding a church home, getting baptized, and becoming friends with an amazing person who i love with everything in me. :]

my hopes for 2009 are to finally overcome depression after fighting for almost six years, get the TWLOHA chapter here off the ground, that I will become closer to God, and that my friendship with him will continue to grow.

15 | Left by Rachel | Jan. 1, 2009 at 10:55am

Highlight: Moving out on my own and keeping up with my school this is the second semester of my sophomore year at FSU!

Hopes For '09 : to Stay Strong
keep up with my school so that i can get my BS in biochemistry then go on to Medical school!

16 | Left by Brittany | Jan. 1, 2009 at 11:42am

the highlight of my year?
so much comes to mind, but i think the absolute highlight has been the realization that i've come a long way in my struggle of overcoming cutting, addiction, painful memories from the rape, etc. it's been a long, hard, sometimes scary journey but it's been so worth it and i'm so glad for the friends who've stuck by me along the way. that is my highlight; that i'm still alive after all i've been through. =)


i'm hopeful for another year like this one; a year filled with friends and laughter and love and hope and redemption. =)

17 | Left by ally c | Jan. 1, 2009 at 11:57am

The highlight of my year has to be meeting the most amazing person on the face of the planet!! ^.^ He has helped me through some tough times...

My goal for this year is to graduate alive and healthy and come to terms with what I have done to myself it has been an interesting journey, but I am not about to give up yet! I will keep fighting!

18 | Left by Finn | Jan. 1, 2009 at 1:03pm

Highlight of 2008: I said "I'm happy" and I wasn't lying. It was one of the best moments of my life.
Hope for 2009: Continue working towards becoming a kindergarten teacher, only two amazing years away :)

19 | Left by Tessah | Jan. 1, 2009 at 1:26pm

2008- Finding an amazing person, and finding this site and all my wonderful TWLOHA friends (Ella, Brittany, Morgan, Taryn, Freesia, and so many more<3). Even though I started cutting in late August, I think it's helped me understand that getting help is the right thing to do, and that I am loved(:

In 2009 I hope to get the help I need, and to get closer to the ones who love and care about me.

day 11<3

20 | Left by Rachel. | Jan. 1, 2009 at 1:43pm

What was the highlight of your 2008?
Making so many wonderful memories with my friends and family.

What are you hopeful for in 2009?
I don't know, really....People have asked me what my 'New Years Resolutions' are, and I tell them that my biggest resolution-is to fight through my battles slowly, day after day, until I get to make the same resolution for next year again.
=] God bless you all. <3

21 | Left by Katie <3 | Jan. 1, 2009 at 2:40pm

you are all so sweet, finding god and different people.

again the higlight of 2008 is finding all of you here at TWLOHA.COM becasue you all helped me so much. i LVE YOU ALL SO MUCH AND THANK YOU AGAIN>

for 2009 i'm hoping that i can stop cutting all together it is day 3 and i hope it be my last day 3 i dont want to start again and find myself saying its day 3 again...

2009 is going to be hard no more drugs, no more cutting, no more drinking, or suicide. its going to be my start to go clean and stay clean, i wish you all the best and luck in this new year. and for the years to come. lets change our lives around for the better, i dont want to be in the hospital at all this year for the any above things i used to do.
this is my year, for my life to shine, and be who i am suppose to be a clean, and amazing person.

You are all amazing and always remember that.


GOOD LUCK, HAVE A SAFE AND AMAZING YEAR.


LOVE ELLA.

<3
tattoo in 6 days
January 7th my 21st birthday getting the tattoo of the word "LOVE" on my four arm and around it a bunch of hearts and stars the hearts mean the people i love and i'm loved by the stars meaning the people i have loved and lost in my life, because i know they are the stars above watching over me, and all of you.


Love you all take care
HAPPY NEW YEAR

LOVE ELLA
<3

22 | Left by Ella | Jan. 1, 2009 at 5:09pm

2008 for the most part was a bad year.
my cutting addiction worsened and i found myself falling into deeper depression
however, '08 was the year that I finally told someone about my problem.
since then I've been working to get better.

So that was my highlight :)

23 | Left by brittany! | Jan. 1, 2009 at 6:33pm

my highlight of '08 would definately be that i made to being 3 years cut free!!!

my wish for '09 is that i make i can make it 4!!!

24 | Left by Shelbee | Jan. 1, 2009 at 7:48pm

the highlight... was opening up to people close to me about my struggle with self-injury, which took over this year and continues to be an enormous struggle. doing so, i found legitimate brotherhood and sweet mentorship.

i'm hopeful in 2009 for leaving this house of emotional abuse and going off on crazy adventures that will stretch me enormously, but ones that'll bring me so much closer to God.

25 | Left by Matthew | Jan. 1, 2009 at 7:54pm

highlight-i stopped cutting, became so much closer to God, met people who really care, and got a group and an amazing teacher together for a deep bible study on the "sermon on the mount".

goal-read through the entire bible. overcome these doubts and trust God even though I cant see or feel him. bring someone to Christ. be someone people can come to with their problems. learn a great deal from the new bible study.

i really, really love reading all the highlights and goals. like it just makes me feel good. keep trusting God and pushing forward

26 | Left by ryan | Jan. 1, 2009 at 8:15pm

matthew and ryan , i'm trying to fined god again, but it is hard sometimes, i'm trying hard to stop its only day 3, and i need to stop hurting myself by cutting and tempting suicide and doing drugs, and drinking.

do you any of you have any advise i'm doing good so far but i need more help


love Ella

<3

27 | Left by Ella | Jan. 1, 2009 at 8:29pm

my highlights were meeting some amazing people that helped me through my rufest times, i didn't know poeple cared so much about me.

My hopes for 2009 is just to see a end to my depression and eating disorders. Also to hug a person a day, a diffrent person each day if i can help it. i can't wait im doing the "free hug" campagian in the biggest city in my state this spring =D

28 | Left by rachel <3 | Jan. 1, 2009 at 11:01pm

my highlight for 2008 was getting the chance to be a part of a traveling music ministry team... basically we drove to different churches up and down the east coast and told kids about Jesus and played music. ( youthencounter.org has more info about it if u want )

my hope for 2009 is to continue to not cut, and work on reaching my goal of 1 year 5 months and 1 day without cutting -- if i make it, itll be the longest ive gone without cutting since i first started! jan 26 2010, here i come!!!

29 | Left by rachel | Jan. 1, 2009 at 11:17pm

hey, this is me again :) and im a different rachel from the one above my other post btw lol


i just saw your post, Ella... id suggest pray, read the Bible, and hang out with people who will lift you up and support you. people who also want to love God and follow him and can help you to know more about him.


i love you Ella, and i will pray for you! and more importantly, God loves you more than you or i or anyone else can ever imagine! he's looking out for you and only wants the best for you *hug!*


ps a verse that has helped me a lot is john 16:33-- "in this world, you will have trouble. but take heart, for I HAVE ALREADY OVERCOME THE WORLD" (it's Jesus talking) God will take care of everything, just trust him! he loves you very very much!!! <3

30 | Left by rachel (again!) | Jan. 1, 2009 at 11:26pm

The highlight of 2008 for me was getting to fly up to New York to see my best friend. She really helped me out a lot.

I'm hoping this year that i can find the will to overcome this addiction. And i want to do something to help someone else aswell.

31 | Left by Jeska | Jan. 1, 2009 at 11:55pm

Highlight: finding friends here at TWLOHA and letting the love movement be my main cause. Thanks guys for all your help.

2009 Goals: Keep fighting and help others to do the same.

Ella- I agree with Rachel's comment. Also try and find a church to go to in your local area. That's what i am trying to do. The post secret blog is still active too.

32 | Left by Brittany | Jan. 2, 2009 at 12:31am

Highlight: finding the person who loves me for I am, and planning to get married to him.

2009 Goals: Fight to keep my dreams alive, learn to put more faith in things.

Thanks for all the good words, Jamie, they really help.

33 | Left by Lacey | Jan. 2, 2009 at 9:46am

Highlight- meeting an amazing person who has changed my life forever and who loves me for me, not what I look like.

'09 hope- keep my hopes alive.

34 | Left by Sarah | Jan. 2, 2009 at 1:01pm

2008- The greatest thing was going to a church retreat at the beginning of the year and finding myself in a stronger relationship with God than ever before, as well as with my best friends, and just watching that manifest itself in my life.

My hope for 2009 is that i can continue to keep these relationships strong even through some huge life changes (College!!) and to share the awesomeness of it with as many people as i can. And to make someone smile every day.

35 | Left by Morgan | Jan. 2, 2009 at 3:07pm

2008 - The ending of one relationship and the beginning of another.
2009 - Living life to the fullest possible extent.

36 | Left by Will | Jan. 2, 2009 at 3:56pm

2008- Finding great people to help me through when i started cutting, and supported me when I'd slip up and cut again

2009- To entirely stop cutting and no more suicide attempts and no more cutting

37 | Left by Joy | Jan. 2, 2009 at 5:01pm

My highlight of last year was not killing myself on my birthday and the other times i tried to kill myself but didn't fully go through with it. I am still in a very severe depression, and in 2009 maybe I can learn to love myself enough to take a step forward in getting help. But it takes courage. Because during last year I learned that the only person that can help me is me. No one else can truly help me or make me take a step forward into getting help. I need to make my mind up on my own that this is what I want to do, and I am determined to get help and not kill myself on my birthday in 2009.

38 | Left by Bliss | Jan. 2, 2009 at 5:44pm

My highlight of 2008 was seeing Between The Trees perform and meeting Renee on November 2nd. And then my other highlight was meeting Jamie On November 14th. Those events were life-changing and I'll never forget them.

My hope for 2009 is to continue to stay away from the blade and no suicide attempts. And I know all things are possible with God. :)

Thanks for everything, you've saved my life, over and over again.

39 | Left by Katherine | Jan. 2, 2009 at 6:13pm

my high light is that I am finally happy with myself. The girls who tortured me are now faceing karma. I can finally look in the mirror and smile. I am now doing well in school because I show up. no longer fearing them.

40 | Left by Allie | Jan. 2, 2009 at 6:46pm

The highlight of my 2008 was when I found this organization. I was a recovering cutter at the time. And I was starting to backslide, then my boyfriend showed me this organization. And I have been keeping up with it ever since. Btw, I didn;t cut myself.
In 2009, I hope to continue writing and playing my guitar and piano. And hopefully use them to one day change at least one life. Just one life will make it all worthwhile...
Thanks!

41 | Left by Lisa | Jan. 2, 2009 at 6:51pm

highlight was getting to study abroad for a semester. I'm looking forward to 2009 to become a more positive person and have the best year ever.

42 | Left by Anon | Jan. 2, 2009 at 9:23pm

Highlight: The show I played on New Year's Eve. I left the year on the best note I possibly could, and I'm ready for '09 to be great. 2008 was the worst year of my life, but I hope that when I look back on it I'll remember the last verse I sang for the year:
"So dry your eyes,
and let's forget how fast time flies...
we've got tonight,
if we do our best we'll be alright"
:)

I'm hopeful that in '09 I'll be happier with college (just switched majors and decided to be an English teacher), and that maybe I won't have to be alone for too much longer. I guess "alone" is the wrong word. I have some great friends, and everyone here- but you probably knew what I meant. Haha

43 | Left by Mike | Jan. 2, 2009 at 10:20pm

2008-it was a relief. 2007 was horrible and stressful, and 2008 was a breath of fresh air. i had many highlights. going to (almost) every concert i wanted to, letting go of the people that were hurting me and things said that were hurting and haunting me, being more open with people (i admitted to a few people about my cutting), and valuing life more.

2009-live.laugh.love.breathe.scream.sing.dance.draw.paint.photograph.realize i'm loved.no cuts.smile.make new friends.reunite with old friends.be happy with myself for who i am. <3

-claire
btw: cut-free for 15 days now

44 | Left by claire | Jan. 3, 2009 at 12:42am

2008 was great. i got to speak to some people in hawaii and tell them how important it was to get up and keep moving forward no matter how many times you fall.

in 2009, i wanna be able to do more and to let more people know that there is hope out there and that redemption is attainable.

45 | Left by ghee | Jan. 3, 2009 at 1:49am

hilight of 2008: nothing, worst year ever for me.

hopes for 2009: being 100% happy, stop cutting, and quit being mean and hating people who don't deserve to be hated.

46 | Left by lvlnc | Jan. 3, 2009 at 1:10pm

highlight: seeing how God redeemed my pain, after a friend took his life in 2007.

Hopes for 2009: that i am forever changed and can love my family, friends, enemies, and strangers more than i ever have.

thanks for all you guys do!

47 | Left by Anon | Jan. 3, 2009 at 7:06pm

Highlights of the year include making it through the year anniversary of my dad's death without breaking down (while having to work, no less!) and getting to share my story with you in Clemson, SC.

Hopes for 2009 include improving some of the relationships I made in 2008 - especially all of the awesome guys (and a few gals) I've met at shows. Also on the list is figuring out where I'm supposed to go to law school and trying to find the strength to tell more people my own story.

48 | Left by Emily | Jan. 3, 2009 at 7:23pm

The highlight of my 2008 was being alive to visit with my best friend of 17 years for the first time in three years.

I hope that 2009 leaves no scars. No fresh cuts for 6 months, I feel major hope. Another hope would be for me to finish Blue Like Jazz.

49 | Left by Kaitlin | Jan. 3, 2009 at 10:09pm

The highlight of 2008 was somehow maintaining on the Deans list for college despite all my traumas along with TRYING to deal with all the traumas even if it meant going into the hospital for sometime because I learned I needed to help myself before other people.

My hopes for 2009 are to stop cutting, stop my drug and alcohol abuse, and continue to heal through all my traumas by being open and truthful with my psychologists.

50 | Left by Julie | Jan. 3, 2009 at 11:12pm

the highlight of my year was a chorus summer camp i attended at rhode island collage....i pushed myself more phisicly and vocaly than i ever thought possibel and getting into it is hard and gave me alot of self-esteem

my hopes for 2009 is to make my year and a half of being sober and cut free(december 18th) to two and a half years, to maintain my strength and not fall back into old habbits because i feel that every day i dont hurt myself makes the next day eiser to not hurt myself.

51 | Left by Karlie | Jan. 4, 2009 at 12:42am

My goal for the new year is to overcome my depression and stay away from cutting, to be happy with myself and to teach others the way to love. I want to have my family go a day without beating on one another and resolve their problems without violence, to love one another. Twloha has definitely helped me along the way and will continue to help me recover and come along with me on my journey of life.

52 | Left by Alycia. | Jan. 4, 2009 at 1:29am

GOAL.... TO STOP HURTING SO OFTEN AND HURTING MYSELF

HIGHLIGHT... NONE...

53 | Left by Steph | Jan. 4, 2009 at 8:01pm

after a hectic 2008 i am just glad to be alive, i am proud of myself for letting my true self show to a close friend and also for passing my second year.

my hopes for 2009 is to stop being reckless with my own life and not put up with people who are, to get my degree, be more honest with myself and my friends and live every day in honour of God!!

good luck for 2009, may it be everything you hope it will be!!

love me

54 | Left by liza | Jan. 5, 2009 at 3:53am

i hope to stop cutting also..and live my life for Jesus...I was a "christian" for a long time...but now...I went to this convention w/ my youth group, called IMPACT...and I gave cutting and all my problems and guilt to God. I really felt the spirit rush throughout me and all around me...It was UhMaZinG!!!....plz pray for me and I will be praying for you guys..to come and see the new found hope i have experienced and am experiencing..:D

<3

55 | Left by Alexondrea | Jan. 5, 2009 at 9:09am

How is everyone coping in the new year, i hope good i really do?

Im not doing so good but oh well :( i hope everyone else is ok on here

Loveyouuuu all

Amy
xxx

56 | Left by Amy | Jan. 5, 2009 at 11:33am

One thing in 2008 was that i finally let God back into my life and i'm soo happy that i did.

One thing in 2009 is that i hope to be more positive and injoy more of my life and injoy it with the ones i love
(:

57 | Left by Tinaaa | Jan. 5, 2009 at 5:35pm

Amy -I am sorry things aren't going so well, but remember your alive and trying that's what counts.

58 | Left by Brittany | Jan. 5, 2009 at 5:40pm

My highlight of 2008, was definitely taking a huge turn in my life and entering recovery after 4 1/2 years of an eating disorder! The hardest step, is the first step, but it's so worth it.

In 2009, I want to speak louder than I ever have..using my story as a bridge of hope for others and offering peace and love to my communtiy.

59 | Left by Janna Powell | Jan. 5, 2009 at 7:08pm

2008; starting my dream and realizing that my best friend is my guardian not just me hers.
2009; to get over my depression to realize what I can truly be and get over my fathers disease. And all my issues.I will. I must.

60 | Left by Amelia | Jan. 5, 2009 at 9:02pm

the highlight of my 2008 was when TWLOHA was able to come to my benefit show. The guys at the TWLOHA house in Cocoa Florida were so helpful and loving and they really made my party a success and helped me raised well over the needed amount.


In 2009 I am hoping to be a new TWLOHA intern <333

61 | Left by Chris Labine | Jan. 6, 2009 at 7:33am

My highlight of 2008. . .defidently discovering twloha. it gave me hope. it made me realize that i'm not alone. that so many people suffer from the same thing that I am suffering from.
In 2009 I am hoping to stop dwelling on the past and get over my depression.

lots of love,
nicole

62 | Left by Nicole | Jan. 6, 2009 at 2:45pm

I just heard about your org. for the first time through jazmin magazine at jazminmag.com and after reading the article, I am very impressed. I wish you all the best as you start out a new year. Your shirts are great!

63 | Left by Shane | Jan. 6, 2009 at 3:17pm

2008 started out horrible but finished rather well for me. My highlights of 2008 would have to be:
-finally coming close to God again
-going to a Family Force 5 show and meeting them
-stopping cutting myself (It'll be a year on February 13th!)

In 2009, I hope to:
-get baptized
-go to warped tour
-tell others about Jesus and what I've gone through without being all scared about it

64 | Left by Leah | Jan. 6, 2009 at 4:17pm

My best 2008 moment was the day that I relized why I cut and once I did that, stopping was instentanious. I've cut myself over 1,200 times and many of them were so deep that they have been angry bubbles for months. I made my last cut in November of 2008. I was also thrilled to get out of the hospital after a total of 10 weeks. And I am greatful for my big sister kat. She was the person that I've told the most about my childhood. KAT IF YOU'RE READING THIS THANK YOU AND I LOVE YOU. I was molested for 10 years and starting when I was four "he" began raping me. He once knocked me out when I was 7. The abuse stopped when I was 10 (he left for collage) I'm now 15. And during the course of 2008 I relized that I wanna live to be 16 and 17 and 18 and 19 ect.
I hope that in 2009 my mom will let me get LOVE tatted on my left arm over my scars and on my left leg over the 200+ scars there. And I hope to help other people who've struggled like I have.
WITH LOVE, SID

65 | Left by Sid | Jan. 6, 2009 at 6:14pm

AMY,
I dont know you but I wish I did. You must be a pretty incredible person if you're still thinking and hoping for other peoples happiness and well being when you yourself are struggeling. As a girl whose delt with alot I can say that you will find peace. You sound excactly like me, but even better because even when things arent perfict, you still hope for others betterness. I dont know you. But please promise me that you and I can chat or email or whatever because I wanna know the girl behind the kind hearted text. And I wanna speak to the heart that that genorosity and love came from. I want to be your friend. I want to get to know you. And I want you to know that even though I've never met you, I can honestly say that I LOVE YOU. Every part of you. And whatever flaws you may have are what makes you beautiful. And when you beat this, you will blossm.
With Love, SID

66 | Left by SID | Jan. 6, 2009 at 6:24pm

There wasn't really a highlight in 2008 for me, which is what I hope 2009 brings. Some good memories, ones that don't upset me.

For 2009, I hope to be able to trust people and find people to trust. Also, I hope to overcome the depression, and the other little things that I do. Although it seems harder to live then let go; hope actually is there. It's worth the fight. <3

please don't give up.

67 | Left by Amy | Jan. 6, 2009 at 6:35pm

My highlight was that I stopped cutting, and of course I had a few steps back. But I really feel like I climbed that high mountain (which turned out to be yes high than I thought).

In 2009 I hope to have even more moments of happiness, and to be keep up the not cutting. And I really think I'm strong enough to do that.

Good luck everybody! And have fun, 'cause I realized that's the most important thing in live.

68 | Left by pocket.size | Jan. 7, 2009 at 10:49am

My highlight of 2008 was being able to finally consider myself saved by my friends and family. They finally showed me the light.

In '09, I hope to spread the word about TWLOHA through serious prose for my school's Speech team.

:] <3

69 | Left by Ashley | Jan. 11, 2009 at 11:30am

The highlight of my 2008 was finally getting out of the situation that I was in. Finally coming into a family that loves me. This year I hope to make it to State for Star Events for FCCLA (I'm doing it on TWLOHA ^^).

70 | Left by Taylor | Jan. 12, 2009 at 2:13pm

The highlight of my 2008 is getting closer to my cousins and feeling like i have a second home, to which i truly belong.

My goal for 2009 is to accept love for what it is and establish life-long friendships and/or relationships.
-to get rid of my ability to push people away.
JUST TO BE HAPPY WITHIN MYSELF :]

71 | Left by Tara | Jan. 13, 2009 at 8:18am

My highlight of 2008 Was learning about TWLOHA really that was the best thing that could have happened
and in this 2009
I hope to find help that I've needed..
TWLOHA showed me that hope is real..
its time to take the next step to getting better
<3

72 | Left by Elise | Jan. 13, 2009 at 6:09pm

the highlight of my 2008 was meeting a bunch of wonderful people who will listen in my time of need.
even though theyre nline theyre some pretty amazing people and i love them with al my heart. they have helped me more than i ever though possible. i love you guys xx

in 2009, i hope to help as many peole as i can. everyone kinda knows me as the "go to girl" when they have problems. ive been through a lot in my life and i connect with people really easily. helping others is basically my life.
twloha showed me that hope is real and help is real and you dont need to go through this alone. thanks guys. youre the best!!! xx

73 | Left by Lisa.xx | Jan. 13, 2009 at 10:53pm

My highlight of 2008 couldn't have arrived at a better time. My highlight was discovering TWLOHA. Of all the years I've lived, 2008 was by far one of my biggest struggles.
I'm 15 years old, and for the past 3 1/2 years I've been struggling with anorexia and bulimia simultaniously. As a child, I suffered abuse day by day to the most extreme of stages, and had been traumatized. I have always been pessured to be the best. The best in school, the best athlete, the best child. Anything less was failure. The eating disorder began, purging up to 15 times a day, fasting for days on end, which led to anxiety, then self-injury and cutting, and overdoses on over the counter medications. The worst part was my family finding out about my ED in the summer of '08. Although I no longer OD and I cut/injure myself less, my eating disorder is at the worst it's ever been.Never again will my mother have trust in me like she did before. Why should she? I told her I stopped purging. I lied. I've tried to stop on my own, but relapse is a demon. The fact that no one will help me makes it hurt more. I was punished for my problem, my family would not help me. Beaten and threatened for having a problem..isn't that wonderful? And yet they never cease to remind me of the dying children in third world countries. Because of them, I'm a monster in the eyes of my family for having an eating disorder. When will they see that this isn't just about being thin?
I found hope in 2008. I found TWLOHA. Although I was able to tell just 1 very close friend (finally) about my problems, they never did disappear.

My hopes for 2009? I want to be fixed. Cured. Whatever you want to call it. I want someone to help me. Someone to talk to. Someone to care. I want to feel what it's like to know my own family loves me I want them to trust me again, because once they do, I KNOW I can do this. I want support rather than ridicule. I want to get even closer with God. I want to love myself for me. I want help. Someone please help me. I am so desperate, I'm crying as I write this. In 2009, I want to beat anorexia and bulimia. In 2009 I want to be free from this hell. In 2009, I want to win.

This place is filled with inspiring support. No doubt about it, I know that TWLOHA will help me free myself.

Much love,
Tiffani

74 | Left by Tiffani | Jan. 14, 2009 at 8:53pm

the highlights of 2008 would be the worst things possible. my mom dying, my best friend moving away, and starting to cut. in that exact order. i had stopped (by one of my friends encoragement even though he lives quite aways away), and i had my boyfriend quit too, which was a pretty big step for us both.
as for my hopes for 2009; i want to stop living in sin. i want to be "beautiful". i hope for people to stop calling me emo. i want to be clean of cutting myself for life, because its been three months for me and one month for zach. i want to be able to enjoy life, to live it to the fullest. i want to stop wanting and being needy. i hope to help others.
and most of all, i want my friends to accept me.

75 | Left by victoria | Jan. 23, 2009 at 3:32pm